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There is so much going on these days.. I doubt myself more than ever over everything and feel as if there is no way to make anyone happy... especially the one I am in love with... I feel like sometimes all I do is make it worse for him.. I feel like everything I say or do just isn't good enough.
I want to know that I make others happy... that I CAN make them happy... especially him........ but I get scared and then doubt myself... Am I making the right decision?.. Am I doing the right thing.... How do I know I am making him happy...
I miss my family. I haven't seen them at all in almost a month. I feel apart from my mom... I miss her so much and it hurts my heart to know that I left her at a time I should have been there..... More than anything right now I wish I could feel her hug again and see her smile and her face when she is mad at me for being mean to her... but IDk if I will ever get that chance again........ IDK anymore.. life is just falling apart...

"When you are truly in love with someone, there will be that unexplainable feeling that just pulls you closer to them each time you see them smile...."