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For the past 2 years, I was with a guy that I was truly in love with. And all of a sudden in the blink of an eye, I lost him. I know that it was my fault for some of the things, but did that mean that I deserved to be treated the way he treated me? I loved him and tried to show that through everything I did... it was never enough...

So now I sit here, my heart in shreds, wondering if we will even have contact with each other anymore... Wondering if he even still cares enough to have me in his life, just like he promised.. just like I promised him. I don't know how I can let him know this. I don't know how to show him that I want him there.

I'm afraid.. and he doesn't know that. I am truly afraid... that in the end I will have nothing left to hope for, nothing left that is part of me.. and then, I will lose myself..

So how do I let him know...?