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IDK what's going to happen from here... I am worried, I just don't want to admit to it because then that will make them worry too. What I know, I don't want them to. I want to keep it a secret and not have to worry about it. I wish they would stop worrying because then that makes it worse on me. I can't sleep well... all that's on my mind is them and that.. What will happen? What will I do?... IDK what really to say.. IDK what really to do... I am trying to be strong, I am putting on that mask again so no one knows what trully I am thinking. I am shaking and hiding it. I cried and didn't tell them because that would make them feel worse. I should tell them I cried, but the sound of his voice when he asks why, the way he reacts.... I don't want to make him more worried about me because I am nothing to worry about... I don't want to make him worry about something so small like me.... IDK what to do anymore... I am trying to put on that brave face, but how long will I be able to before he knows..... How long?