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The weather is perfect for me right now.. stormy and rainy... just the way i like it.
My spring break didnt start out like i wanted it to, but just yesterday the tables turned... I never thot I would have a wednesday on a monday again... but i did and i loved it... I have had way too many Mondays and I finally got a wish answered...

I am finally over being sick and my relationship is back on track... where i want it to be... We have not fought in quite some time and we are happy once again.... We just needed to have some time to ourselves to relax and just be in each others presence... I sometimes know that there are blocks between both of us and we can't seem to get thru them.... but in time i know they will go away...

I feel away from the person that I should be closest with. IDK what it is and I do know everything's fine, just something feels wrong and I can't seem to put my finger on it....

And I know I am keeping something from someone. the thing is IDK how to tell them or what to say to them... I am afraid of saying it because I dont want the world to fall all around me again and me be put back in the darkness... Do I tell them or do I jsut let life go on and let everything work itself in or do I step up like I always do and screw it up again....?

IDk what to do and I am afraid of messing things up agian... and i dont want that.. Ive lost too many as is