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Ok, so i am sick still... and I have to go baby sit tonight... these past 2 weeks have been some of the worst in my life.... i almost lost my boyfriend and I am losing my friends slowly.. idk what to do anymore.. and me being sick isnt helping
i still also get complaints from my friends with them saying i am too skinny.. i cant help it! i eat like a pig most nights and i cant seem to gain a pound.. just lose them slowly... most girls would kill to have this but i am annoyed with it beyond belief... crying
i am also afraid that i am pushing on my boyfriend too hard.. i sometimes cant help it tho just b/c of past relationships ive been in.. i love him with all my heart and soul and idk what would happen to me if i were to lose him again. now THAT ive learned... i am in love with him and he knows it... i am just afraid of losing him or pushing him away again.... he is my guardian angel and i want him to always be

life basically sux right now but at the same time could be worse so i am happy that i DO have this life that i am living because whenever i see my boyfriend a smile grows across my face and there is no where else i would rather be ^_^