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it's strange to realize it's been three hundred and sixty five days since you've left us all behind. It feels like it's been mere months at most since I've seen you, but I know that you're in a better place now with grandpa. It's even more weird to realize that he hasn't been around for more than twelve years now. It seems like everyone else goes before I do, no matter how dangerous the things I do are.

Still I don't have any plans of leaving anytime soon, I miss you both, but I want to live a life that would make you both proud. So much has changed in the time that you haven't been around for. I've changed a lot, sometimes for the best and sometimes for the worst, but still I've grown and learnt from everything so far. I'm back into training again grandpa, I know you'd be a little dissapointed in me for not doing it for so many years.

I've had a new girlfriend Gran fro the one you last knew of, but I'm single again. I'm happy being single for now though and I'm not interested in romance. I need to get things sorted out for me first.

I had a plan to write something long here, just to let you and all the others that have passed away that I still remember, and I still care. The pain has grown less, I think perhaps my heart has gone a little numb to it, but I'm still here and growing stronger. I hope that I'll never let any of you down, since you are no longer here to live your lives.

Goodbye may seem forever, farewell may seem the end. But in my heart's a memory, and there you'll always be. As long as I'm still here a part of you will always be alive as well. I'm not sure what else I'm going to put in this entry, so I'll end it now. If you're there looking down on me, I want you to know that I've found some happiness in life, and I've grown a lot stronger. I love you and I always will.
-Jay