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This pain I feel inside

Has twisted all my binds

Forever in twinned within

Seeping through my limbs

Off of all my cursed sins

Abide all my lifeless tame

Satured by my tears

On these lifeless days

So Cursed am I by sin

These sins I mustn't rid

For its sins I do not know

But done by my hands

From which I didn't know

The tears keep draining

Down my cheeks filled with pain

Forever drowned by my hate

And thrown by my love

That has nothing more to gain

And not a cure can tell

Oh why

God hast thou not a cure

Of love and grace

So side my sins and be thy own self

For what has thou done

To deserve such a death mate

Should I hate myself and disregard my life

Or must I just lay here dying

From all the pain in my weeping heart

It swallows me whole from the inside out

And yet I seem to live without a pulse

A sour pulse in my dreary wrists

Forever pulsing slowly

Executing my life from my limbs

Yet the shadows still so far away

Seeping towards my

Taking my breath away

But yet what is this breath I breathe

It's just a retched time being sent away

With every breath of air I lose

But it seems I cannot plea for my release

It still scurries within me

Taking me away from this world

But should I be thankful for my departure

Or should I pray for my freedom

That thou may not even deserve

Its curse of cures still not been with me

Has seen no light but the darkness yet so proceeding

It drains my soul from my body

Soon I'll have nothing to be for

Nothing to exist in being here

Have I been here or have I already died

Still the answer resides within me

And yet my heart hasn't gone without a beat

It's every drop of blood still draining

Slowly with every moan of pain

But have I had the pleasure in this death

Or will I stay here in pain dying forever

praying to leave this world

Wishing for freedom from every corner

In this relentless place

Where my sins take my wishes

And shred them with my life

It Seems my life is gone proceeding from my body

Shaken by it's course

It's course seeping from this world

Has thou died and gone to heaven

Or has my sins brought me to hell

Upon all places where I dwell in shame

On my displeasing sins of which I have done

And so am I gone for all to mourn

On my reckless crimes