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11:00 PM...

(If you read the first paragraph and listen to SJ-M's At Least I still have you, then you'll really get into the feeling. I almost cried... ToT)

Eunhyuk awoken in the middle of the night because he couldn't have one thought out of his mind: Donghae. He really wished he remembered all the great moments that he spent with Donghae, as he said. Suddenly, he started remembering him and Donghae going to the beach and running around in the water. The sand in between their toes, and Donghae and himself picking themselves and throwing each other into the water and having a lot of fun. He started remembering things every 15 minutes, as he continued looking into the clock and trying his best to remember as much memories as he can. Although his mother told him not to force the memories, he had to in order to remember all the things he can about Donghae. Suddenly, he remembered the medicine that was supposed to help him remember. He looked at the small tabletop next to his bed, and saw his bottle of pills that he wasn't supposed to take until the morning. With tears in his eyes, he took the bottle, and opened it. He poured out two times as much as he's supposed to take and dropped them all in his mouth.

Donghae, who heard noises from the other room got up from his sleep and went to see what was going on. And just in time, he entered Eunhyuk's room right when Eunhyuk inserted too many pills into his mouth. Donghae's eyes widened and ran towards Eunhyuk, strongly hitting Eunhyuk's back and shouting, "Spit it out! Spit it out!" Finally, Eunhyuk gave up and spat out all of his pills onto the blanket of his bed. With both of them panting, Donghae exclaimed, "Hyung, are you mad? Are you trying to kill yourself?" Eunhyuk looked up towards the other and said, "But I-" "You can kill yourself with that, you know!" "I'm so--" "Why were you trying to do tha-" "I was doing it for you!!" Eunhyuk finally exclaimed.

Donghae was confused, real confused, and asked, "What?" Eunhyuk, still with tears framing his eyes, stood up in front of Donghae. "I was trying to remember all of the memories of us, because I couldn't sleep without thinking about you. I had to remember you so we can be back to normal again." Donghae started to feel his eyes sting with tears as well, touched that his hyung would do that for him. He sighed, and answered, "Eunhyuk, you don't have to gobble up one too many memory pills just to remember me." "I don't?" Eunhyuk asked. "Nope. In fact, we can probably make new memories. And with your pills that you are taking, they can probably stay memories." Eunhyuk smiled, but frowned back again. "But what if I forget?" he asked.

Donghae smiled once more and answered, "Then I guess we're going to have to make more memories. Speaking of which, I thought you had some memories come back, right?" Eunhyuk smiled back, finally understanding what Donghae was interpreting. After a long moment of silence, Donghae shuffled his feet, trying to state something to the other. "Eunhyuk?" "Hmmm?" "What memories did you start to remember?" Eunhyuk pursed his lips and he looked to the ceiling. "Well, stuff like when we went to the beach, amusement park, museum, stuff like that." Donghae smiled to himself, referring back to the lovely memory that never left his mind.

However suddenly, Eunhyuk said, "I really don't want you to try too hard, because I don't want to keep forgetting all the stuff we do together when you did all you could for time together." Donghae eyed the desk next to Eunhyuk's bed, and picked up the bottle of pills that Eunhyuk was previously holding, and asked, "Isn't this the medicine that helps you remember things?" Eunhyuk nodded and took the pills, pretending to be observing it. "Then I guess you wouldn't forget much, would you?" Eunhyuk shrugged, "I guess not." Donghae smiled, then yawned. "Let's go back to sleep now, please. I'm so tired, it's not funny." Eunhyuk made a small chuckle, as he told Donghae "good night" and covered himself with the warm blanket and slept for another 8 hours.

The next morning, Eunhyuk was the first to wake up. He got up from his bed and immediately went to the living room. He looked around, like he did when he first came inside the home, and started remembering when he first bought the house with Donghae. He remembered it so clearly, it was as if it was yesterday...

"I don't like that house. It looks haunted!" Donghae complained, leaning his head on Eunhyuk's shoulder, who was using the computer. "Then how about this one?" Eunhyuk asked, pointing at the computer monitor at a house (that was the house they lived in now). Donghae gasped in awe, and said, "It's so pretty! I love it. The house is pretty expensive though."

Eunhyuk looked down at the younger other, with his head on his shoulder, and scoffed on his hair. "There's no house that Hyukie can't afford." Donghae giggled, and nodded. "Alright. If you can get me this house, then I will buy you dinner that evening." Eunhyuk smirked, and shook Donghae's hand. "Deal."

Eunhyuk smiled, remembering that he won the bet and eating the delicious dinner Donghae bought. He sat down on the couch, the couch that Donghae's mother gave him, and sighed as he leaned his back comfortably. He stroked the arm of the sofa, as if it was a dog, and smiled slightly bigger than before. He remembered that the sofa was from Donghae's mother, and that Eunhyuk used to dislike its design. He used to complain that it was "too plushy" and "too psychedelic", which was the style Eunhyuk didn't enjoy too much. Suddenly, he heard shuffling from Donghae's room and grunting and swearing of frustration. Eunhyuk tilted his head, and stood up from the sofa, quietly heading towards the bedroom full of noises from Donghae.

Eunhyuk turned the doorknob and pushed, opening the door. He peeped his head slightly, and saw Donghae on his dresser, surrounding him with makeup and pictures. In Donghae's hand was a picture, surrounded by a blue, velvet heart-shaped frame. Eunhyuk squinted his eyes, trying his best to see who the person was in the image. Is that... me? Eunhyuk thought to himself. Then he heard Donghae mumble the following words:

"Eunhyuk, you forgetting everything is all my fault." he forced a laugh. "I told you I was going to do all I could to help you remember all the memories as much as I could." Donghae shook his head. "I can't do that." he lifted his head, looking at the mirror. "I can't do that." he repeated. "I want to do all I can to return back to normal so we can be together, but your memory may stop that." Donghae went back to weeping, as he dropped his head back onto the dresser, dropping the picture onto the carpetted floor.

Eunhyuk compressed his lips together, and quietly closed the door. He firmly headed his way towards his room, and quickly dug through his dresser, finally finding what he wanted. He took out his pill bottle once again, and opening it, this time, no holding back. He poured out the same amount as last night and stared down at it. He remembered what Donghae told him that previous evening. Something about him trying to help me remember all the things we've done together... he whispered. He started to feel his eyes swell with tears, and subconsiously quote, "Eunhyuk, you don't have to gobble up one too many memory pills just to remember me. We can probably make new memories. And with your pills that you are taking, they can probably stay memories." Eunhyuk felt a tear drop down his cheek.

He sighed, and said, "Donghae, you're the memory I'll never forget. No matter how severe my memory loss gets. You'll always be there for me, and I'll do all I can to be there for you." Eunhyuk started to feel as if memories were entering his brain one by one. Donghae riding the plane to America with him. Donghae greeting him in the hospital, then slowly weeping that Eunhyuk couldn't remember him anymore. Donghae entering his home. Donghae trying to refresh his memory by telling him who he was. Donghae asking his mother to come with to Donghae's home. Then, before he knew it, he remembered almost every single memory that he had. His first date, his first kiss, his first everything. He remembered... everything.

Eunhyuk's eyes widened, when he noticed that his memories were back. And he was quite sure that it was more than 20% of his previous memory. He remembered it as if he never got into the car accident, as if he never got hurt, as if he never forgotten his love. Eunhyuk looked back, and saw that the house looked different than before. He smelled the "new house" scent, and saw that the couch and other things were still in boxes or wrapped with paper from moving. Then he suddenly heard Donghae talking to the movers in the front door, and shutting it.

Eunhyuk looked down at the floor, confused as to why it seemed he went back in time. He suddenly heard, "Eunhyuk, what are you doing?" Eunhyuk looked up, and saw Donghae leaning on the door edge, staring at him. "Nothing. Just thinking about you." Donghae smiled big, and sighed. "Look, as much as I enjoy you thinking about me, we're going to be late if you don't hurry up." Eunhyuk slowly nodded in confusion, and quietly stated, "Right. Gotta hurry up." Donghae nodded, and walked back into the living room.

Eunhyuk looked around the room, and it wasn't as gloomy and dusty as he's last seen it. Eunhyuk opened the dresser, and saw it filled with his clothes. HIS clothes. It was even in the same order as it was in the past, he remembered. As he changed his clothes and fixed his hair, he slowly remembered that this was the evening where he got into the car accident. Eunhyuk took one quick look at the mirror, and started thinking. "If this is the evening of the incident," he whispered, "then I better keep myself from getting into it." Eunhyuk nodded, and quickly exited his room, following the voice of Donghae calling him.

Well, whether, wherever he was, the past, present, or future, he knew one thing: he was surely going to remember this. @

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Note: KYAAAAAAAAAAA~~ nice... xDDD sorry for the looooong update. I really didn't want to start because of me lazy self. xDD I really loved this story. It was different, but everywhere. Sorry if it was not as great as it could be. I know it could have been better... Well, at least I got the story out and stuff so... ^^;; Hope that's good enough. ROFL. I'll try to start back on SuJu Shapeshifters before my mind starts thinking of other story ideas and yada yada yaahhh... xDD LOL, see yah and please leave your comments!!! Must in need of commentees~~ <3