Okay so this has been a hellish week for me. I usually like the holidays. This Thanksgiving however was not what I had expected. I live with my girlfriend and her mother. We had our two sons, nephew and his friend over. Like I said, it was supposed to be a nice holiday.
I have had so much emotionalism lately and I didn't understand why. We discovered part of the reason today. Apparently I ran out of one of my prescriptions...one of the more important ones being it is for my depression and anxiety disorder. Two weeks ago my girl and I quit smoking. That added stress. Of course the holidays add stress. Fortunately we discovered the Rx snaffu and got it refilled today so I was only out for about 48 hours. But, damn!
I have a chronic medical condition called Hydradenitis Suppurativa with Lymphoedema. I have just been diagnosed with Diabetes, have Hypertension/High Cholesterol and Hypothyroidism, and mentally I'm messed up as well...PTSD, severe depression, anxiety disorder and agoraphobia.
So anyway, getting back to this week...my mother-in-law is getting to me lately. I grew up with a mother who looked at me with love everyday. She always saw me with her "mother's eyes". Pam, my wife, grew up differently. Her mother is HIGHLY critical of EVERYTHING about her. She constantly puts her down and it makes me crazy. I always believed that if no one else was on your side, your mother always would be. That's all I've ever experienced. I am that way with my son and step-son. So it's very hard to understand the mentality that is displayed in my mother-in-law's attitude. Well, her musings and accusations toward her daughter, my wife, raises my blood pressure every stinking time.
On Thanksgiving, she decided to get a six-pack (which turned out to be a 12-pack) and proceeded to celebrate the holiday with Olympia beer. After her 3rd or 4th one, she started on Pam again. By this time, I had had three episodes of high blood pressure. The fourth time she started, I blew up. Nice. Happy Thanksgiving you ungrateful woman...
 mavenofmystery · Mon Nov 26, 2007 @ 05:08am · 0 Comments |
