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No no no no no Of all the people in the world...of all the guys and girls out there... WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND? It's so bad for me. I just want her to be happy, and I don't care about myself, but I don't know what to do. I can't be around them or I start crying. I REALLY LOVE HER AND I HAVE FOR ABOUT 2 YEARS NOW. What do I do what do I do what do I do? I want to DIE. Die die die. She really does mean the world to me. But she will never feel the same way about me. I feel like an idiot. I can understand though. I'm out of shape, I'm stupid. I'm useless. I'm a pathetic excuse of a human. No one would want me. I can't stop crying now. I love her I love her I love her. More than anything else. I would wait for her until the universe collapsed around me, and then keep on waiting. She will never want me. I don't know what to do. I am still crying. I want to die. I'm miserable. WHY DID SHE HAVE TO GO OUT WITH THAT a***e AGAIN?! HE MISTREATED HER ON PURPOSE!! HE DOESN'T LOVE HER! I'm loyal. I would never do anything to hurt her. But she doesn't see me for who I am. They have dated before. She treated me like st then. More emotional abuse than I could handle. I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF. She wouldn't have liked it. Maybe then she would have cared. No. She wouldn't. I mean nothing to her anymore. Nothing nothing nothing. Why must I be in love with her? I love her so much... I would destroy all my Nintendo stuff(Zelda, MArio everything), anime and manga, ****** EVERYTHING just to be with her. She doesn't understand how much I love her. It's killing me on the inside. She desrves better than that b*d. that a*e. That...that...I can't even describe him. He did the worst things to her. He doesn't even like girls. He's gay(no offense). He treated her so bad...I wanted to beat the st out of him. And I would if she would let me. But she won't. If she doesn't like it, I won't do it. Goddesses, I'm so ******** worthless. The world would not miss me if I died tonight. She will never understand how I feel right now. Pretty soon she's gonna be mean to me again. Ignore me. Act like I don't exist when he's not around. Act like I'm nothing. Like I'm not worth it. Scar me. Destroy me. KILL ME. I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying. My heart is aching and BLEEDING. I'm miserable. I am misery itself. I understand. I'm not good enough for her. I'm as useless as the most useless thing on the planet. I'm stupid. I'm ugly. She deserves better than me. Better than him. I am better than him. I treat her well. I listen to her. Respect her. I love her more than anything else. She will never understand the pain I feel right now.

Posted by: Triforce-Kun Sat Jan 27, 2007 @ 01:47am

Damon Baird is the most amazing cynic in the ******** world.

"There we go, one muzzled queen! But not you, her. You were great, I loved your speech there, especially the b***h-a** stuff. Very good, very enlightening."
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Kage Rinku
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Commented on: Sat Jan 27, 2007 @ 02:00am


	Master ........ No Matter What ....... Dont Give Up Your Love For Her Even If She Is Doing These Things! If You Truely Love Her Then You Can Overcome Any Problem That Goes To You And Dont Think That Nobody In This World Cares For You ...... Even Though I Have Not Seen You In Person ..... I Still Love You! Please Master Dont Think These Ways ....... They Happen All The Time ...... Please Master ..... Stay Strong!

Commented on: Mon Feb 12, 2007 @ 01:30am


	That made me cry.... You seem to feel so much... Look. I can see your hurting. And I can see why....maybe, because you're her friend, and her best one at that, maybe she's having a little trouble seeing your true feelings. As a girl myself, I think that you should tell her how you really feel. You say that she'll never understand your pain. If you told her from the bottom of your heart what you just wrote down, then I think she could understand. Because from your words, I guess I see..... not understand, but at least see..... your hurt. Good luck. I know you'd be better for her.

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Muriai Kamari
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Commented on: Mon Feb 19, 2007 @ 05:26am


	...Why does it always come to this..? i wrote a song... it goes like this... In confusion, incomprehending Insane actions, unforgiving memory lost in a storm Forever unatainable Forsaken pleasures gone For no one remembers what its like i can't say how I feel 'Cause i can't find the feeling to describe i cannot even tell if i am really feeling The way I think i am But just remembering when all I felt was sorrow makes me smile untill then, i'll just have to overcome this trial for just a little while interaction, fast reaction deep attraction, love and passion a loving eart ripped and torn words lake such feeling fealings that have no meening ends at the beginning even as she cries i can't say how I feel 'Cause i can't find the feeling to describe i cannot even tell if i am really feeling The way I think i am But just remembering when all I felt was sorrow makes me smile untill then, i'll just have to overcome this trial for just a little while Reflections lying, great treasures crying a heart of stone, so hard and cold broken by the lightest wind futers remembered past still a mystery but still she cannot say a single word i can't say how I feel 'Cause i can't find the feeling to describe i cannot even tell if i am really feeling The way I think i am But just remembering when all I felt was sorrow makes me smile untill then, i'll just have to overcome this trial for just a little while For just a little longer i need to put up with all these conflicts inside my soul for just a little longer i need to deal with what i know! i can't say how I feel 'Cause i can't find the feeling to describe i cannot even tell if i am really feeling The way I think i am But just remembering when all I felt was sorrow makes me smile untill then, i'll just have to overcome this trial for just a little while for just a little while for just a little while

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