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March 10, 2009 - Tuesday

wasted time

i wasted 4 years of my life looking for the first love of my life whom i met in 7th grade. i used a lot of resourced and backtracked over a lot of former teachers and friends from the past. i looked for her because she was the only one whom i truly though who loved me and liked me for who i was. no matter how stupid i acted at times or what i wore or what i said. i woulda done anything for her. shes had my heart since we met. she was my first real kiss she was the first girl i ever cried over. she was the best thing i ever had. well ever girl i ever been with after her. that includes sarah h. sarah r. sarah s. caitlin h. kaitlin s. kerei jones. vikki b. brittany b. brittany l. kayla r. katie r. joyce. ashly t. amber b. blanca w. diamond e. alex s. alexis t.tracy g. amanda h. and even my ex fiancee jessica j. ragan. i always love you and truly only you melody jewel williams. you taught me so much in such a short time.idk how i would treat girls if i never met you. im sorry things had to turn out this way. you were my only hope for a decent relationship and well i guess my dating life is offically over. and i accept that.