Aahh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
Aahh, I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame
That about sums me up right now. I hide it well don't i? Always look rather happy and perky. Wish someone could see through the crap, but I'm a little too good of an actress. Whole family knows about the cutting thing so can't solve the problem that way. Not quite in the mood to be shipped off to some therapy center. idk. I don't really have anything to be upset about right now. Mostly just Kaylee and how much David reminds me of her. I couldn't help her. Maybe why that's I care so much about David right now. I want to help him, maybe to make up for not being able to help her. That sounds lame. XD
That reminds me, no, I don't like him like that. We came close to being gf/bf once and I blew it cause I'm an idiot, but anyways, now, well, now we're just not like that. I still love him like a sister though. I really do care about him and worry about him and am so ecstatic that he's gonna be at school Monday. God, I missed him. XD I know, I'm a baby, but still. I caught myself looking for him at lunch Thursday and was like "wait, he's not here anymore....Oh....right...." Ugh, idiot. I seriously need to quit making friends that I really care about. :/ I just end up unhappy. He'll be back so yay, but he doesn't want to be. sad UGGGHHHH!!! I need summer. I need to get away from all this crap. STAR week and David and Alyssa and my need to dump her and my inability to do it and AAAHHHHH!!! Omfg, it's driving me silently mad
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