Okay, so I've got a girlfriend. The miracle of my bi status. So, gf, should be happy right? Except I barely know her and I can't talk to her cause I barely know her and I won't let her kiss me cause I'm still hung up on Kaylee. I swear I'll get over that one day.....maybe.....okay, fine. Probably not, but it sucks like hell having to see her every day at school and not being able to get the courage to say anything cause she broke my heart and I can't seem to let anyone in now. I'm too scared of getting hurt again and I look better, but it's a total act and no one notices until I break down and ugh! It drives me crazy. I really need to get over her. She's messing me up. Maybe Color Guard will distract me long enough to survive through my Senior Year.
Oh, I've had a headache since Thursday. Is that normal? I didn't think so. Watch X-Men Origins earlier. Pretty good considering it was a stolen copy bootleg thing. Then again, I'm a brainwashed X-men fan so I'm kinda biased, but it seemed pretty good. The story definitely kept the pace going pretty fast. idk. I liked it. And I got to see Gambit, so my life's alright.
David's bugging me. That boy, he drives me crazy. I worry about him too much for my own good. It's just...he reminds me so much of Kaylee that it scares the crap outta me. I'm so afraid of loosing him like I lost her. But he's apparently gonna be homeschooled cause he doesn't like Nordhoff. So I'm gonna loose him too. I need to quit trusting people or getting hung up on people. They all just leave. I'll learn that lesson eventually.
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