Thursday April 16. 11:00pm
I feel like today was a pretty good day. Even though i did wake up at 8:15 only having about 20 minutes to get ready for school. I definatly feel strong today and that the old and out going me is finally coming back.
Math was uneventful but in science we ere watching this movie about a girl and her quinceanera. Its actually pretty good. God science made me so freaking mad. So anyways science is third period so i have lunch time during that period. In my class is my friend nick, who is so awesome. HIs like a little brother my twin who i am one minute older then. Apparently my other friend Brittany had kicked him the the testicles (oww poor Ni NI) Okay
Okay so heres the deal . They both have ADD but with Nick he just spaces out, Brittany on the other hand... goes a little crazy. She cant really help it sense her evil mother wont to give her, her pills, which helps her calm down and focus. I mean she still crazy when she takes em, buts its crazy in the good way. When she's not on her pill she acts really different, but she cant help it. She can help not being nice to people though. Like threating them with an arrow, and kicking a guy in a privates okay thats not cool. In fact its painful. She called him a whore, so nick called her a whore back (which she hates being called) so she decides to kick hi in the privates because of it.
Lets rewind. My friend Nick has had a lot of girlfriends this year. The relationships don't really last. Girls like him basically because his adorable and has a wonderfully personality, but sadly they just don't last long. All his girls who are friends call him a man whore (which he hates) so thats probably why she called him that. Yeah... that doesn't settle with me. I don't care what there reason where, they were both pretty much wrong, especially Brittany. Its Freakin Pissed me off. I yelled out both of them during lunch when i found out saying how they where both wrong. Seriously sometimes i feel like her mother. I don't really mind sense her really one is crappy. thats why I'm still Brittany friend. i Can tell shes really hurting. I know shes a good person she just really loud and abonoxios when shes not on her pill. Well I'm not going to leave her because of that. Right snow she really needs a read friend, because if she doesn't have one I'm afraid she might actually kill herself. I've already seen scars on her wrist. I check them the other day so she hasn't been doing it lately. You know sometimes when people are making fun of her i just want to pull up her sleeves and show them her writs and say "Is it still funny!?! If she kills herself today do you want to know who fault its going to be? Yours! So why do yo freakin tell me if its still funny !?!" Im so sick of people crap.
By P.E i was still made at her. So i pulled her from the locker rooms and pratically dragged her to the guidance office. On the way there she beg me to let her use the restroom so i finally did, and i ran into casey who told me about peermediation (or how ever you spell it) We went and i signed nick and her up for it. I wont be able to be in there with them, but they better try to work things out. She did say she was sorry to him on the bus, and that what she did was horrible, and she doesnt deserve to be forgiven. I'm really proud of her. They are going to talk on monday with the peer thing.
Dammit i failed today, i thought about grant. I just couldn't get him out of my mind. I Even start to listen to my broken heart playlist on my ipod (thank god i didnt okay maybe i did just a little bit. It was only one song!). Well not anymore. My bestie lauren is helping me get my act together. Basically she told me Alexis your stronger then this, your more then just his rebound girl so don't fall so easily when your around him because you are tougher that that, and other stuff that really pumped me up. She's right I'm stronger then this. It isnt the end, its only the beginning. Like i wrote down last night, im not holding back anymore
 VampireMetal · Sat Apr 18, 2009 @ 05:18am · 0 Comments |
