Falling
Keep a memory of me
For I may disappear
I never was alright
You never knew
But I never was
I never let you see inside
I never let you see my real self
I am weak
I am frail
I am stubborn
I am rejected
I am unable to cope
I want to die
For my whole life
Seems like one big mistake
Everything I’ve done is wrong
Every word I’ve said
Should never have left my lips
If I could vanish
The world would become a better place
My mother doesn’t care
She just thinks I’m ungrateful
Whenever I try to tell her how I feel
I’ve kept it bottled up
All of the emptiness inside
I pretend that I don’t feel misplaced
To make you think I’m alright
For if you had known
I’d go to the councillor
The one that made it worse
It never helped me
I never recovered
I have just felt more hurt
I trust only you
The one I used to trust betrayed me
And I realised how much she hurt me
Now everyone thinks she is the one who needs help
I was pushed away
Closer to the edge
She than latched herself to someone else
And was going to leech that poor soul’s life away
You still think of her as a friend
And you just can’t see
She’s pulling you away from me
You’re the rope that stops me falling
And she’s cutting you away from me
Strand by strand
Now that you’ve seen my real self
Now that you have seen my soul
Will you still stay with me...?
Or will you let that last strand be cut?
Will you watch me as I fall?
Will you try to pull me up?
Let me fall
If I must fall
If you don’t want to stay
I will just survive beyond this moment
Without any help
I can survive with the familiar fear
The sadness
The depression
The death that calls to me
The way my will to live is crumbling into dust
I know that your leave will not be so painful
As you just watching me fall
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....Pain
....pain
everyone has pain
we all hide our true selfs
in a malestorm of blood
a typhoon of meisery
if you knew me,
the true me.........
..................
its a mirror hannah
Years ago, when my life was unbearable, i wrote this poem........
to be strong enough to defeat the inhuman
one must become like them,
one must make a sacrifice,
it may be blood,
love,
or your soul...
yes.....it is necesarry to make a sacrifice,
for we become more then human,
or perhaps less.....
but no!
There must be another way
i agree
for if man gave freely to such temptation,
we would be nothing more then slaves.
life is love, joy, happiness........hope..
but it is also fear, regret, pain, disbelief, and death
for without these things,
we do not hope....nor dream....
We shall not be engulfed by darkness!!!
hark! thy name be evil!
strike me down.......before its too late
Life is what you choose it to be hannah
if its misery....i'm afraid you may be lost
but take my hand!!
to deliver you out of the darkness.....i make it my duty!!
you have no hope......the rope is breaking....
Let me be your support, your light, your hope!
if the rope breaks, i'll be there to catch you when you fall
when your body is broken, i'll be there to breath life into you
i won't let you go........
i won't let you go.........