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Aw man. Things just keep getting more and more stressful.

I just wish I could take the rest of the school year off and never have to get up again.

I had another breakdown last night.

I think I'm finally losing it.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do...

I dunno...Here...I'll tell you the situation, but it's kinda long, so here we go...

3 of the freshmen are drug addicts. I was told by Keene that one of them did not want to. Chantel. She supposedly wants to go to school, but the other two are forcing her to stay there and get stoned with them. (none of them have been coming to school for a while.) So I got worried, and agreed to help Keene make them stop.

Now, my view was "let them ******** up their lives. They don't want help, and they don't want to quit." Then I heard the above mentioned "fact."

Yesterday, I found out this was false.

Last night, Keene sent me an IM conversation he had with trung and Chantel.

And I just can't take anymore. I've been through more than enough this year. Ask Kage; I was crying, but a LOT. I just wish things could have stayed the was they were when i was a freshman. The year just keeps getting worse...

And Keene keeps telling me that we have to help them, but they don't want it. He says they won't listen to him, but he's not listening to me. And he just keep going on and on, no matter how many times I told him to stop.

I was talking with Nick and Kage and I just don't know what to do about ANYTHING anymore...

Hippie's a ******** moron. He does not understand what he's doing to me. He wants his friends to be happy? Then he should leave me the ******** alone.

I don't know how much more of this s**t I can TAKE. I want out. I hate this. I wanna stop crying. I want to be happy. And I was, until he sprung this on me. Now I'm an emotional WRECK again.