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So, I had a particularly wonderful day that became a conflicting evening. =D
So it was Tuesday, yeah? You know what THAT means! X3
Yeah, that's right! XD
LIBRARY DAAAY! whee
Only, I couldn't find my housekeys. >.< ********.
I blame my younger brother for this. -_-
I think the last time I saw my keys, I'd placed them on the little table in our room. Thing is, Henry rolls around a lot in his sleep. I mean... A LOT. AND he's a deep sleeper, so none of his rampant action disturbs him whatsoever! @_@;
He knocks into chairs, knocks the table over-scaring the crap out of me, because it then hits the closet doors, and guess where I sleep? biggrin (Inside the closet, of course.)
Yeah... I haven't seen my key on it's key chain ever since. -_- It's not in any of it's usual spots, so I'm left going "WTF? Where is it!?"
But!
I went out any way! ******** YOU, RESTRAINING HOUSE KEY! XD
I had to anyway. I was losing vast time on the meeting at the library, and I had to recheck out both my scholarships book and mom's Tortilla Curtain (I've already renewed it before. She's only a third into it. Three weeks initial, three weeks more, and I've renewed it today for three MORE weeks. biggrin Yeah, six weeks and she's only a hundred or so pages into the book. -_- READ, WOMAN! LEAVE THE DAMNED TV ALONE AND MAKE TIME FOR LITERATURE! DX)
Then again, I'm one to talk. I got frustrated with the scholarship book and only looked into it three or four times tops in the three weeks I had it. >.<
I don't know what I'm looking for specifically, only that I need that scholarship money if I want to go to college, and I don't cut the quota for the vast majority. What exactly am I eligible for, other than race? I'm not even sure of what I really want to study (Music and English are the top two choices right now, though, but I like learning about other cultures and writing about them in good fun as well. Would anthropology be more my field of study? And whatever happened to Psychology, anyway!? Oh heck no! DX I'm in trouble... but music and english are up there, so I should go with those... *sweatdrop* so why do I feel so hesitant? It's probably because of the boundary-the restriction. I hate that. Why can't I just be free to learn what I want, anyway!? I've already skipped the Japanese and moved on to Gaelic! >_< I don't expect to learn too much-just a few words here and there. To me, Gaelic is even harder than Japanese, but at the same time some of the words are easier to understand because they're closer to English. XD
However, the pronunciation for Gaelic is harder hands down. @_@; Way, WAY harder than Japanese ever was.
At least Japanese was semi-set. There was no mystery to it. Pronounce it as it is, hard syllables, don't mess up.
In Gaelic, there's so much room to mess up! @_@;
... I got off track.. XD)
RIGHT! XD
ANYWAAAAY! XD
So I get those books renewed and check out two books on Gaelic. In addition, I slowly picked out and checked out Princess Ai volume 2, a Franz Ferdinand cd, a Sixpence None The Richer cd, and a Maroon 5 CD. XD I almost checked out a Goo Goo Dolls CD-the one with Slide and Iris on them X3- but I thought "I'm gonna die under this weight as it stands. My ARMS are going to die under this weight as it stands. I need to stop being so voracious and just stick to what I have for now, then come back for the rest later after giving everything back! biggrin " XD
Yeah.
While checking things out, I got caught up in a conversation with a librarian talking about life goals, things to study in college, my scattered mind being unable to decide on what to study just in case, and not having a job so that I can save up the money to pay for the tuition. XD
She told me that when she went to college, everything was literally free... @_@;
Now an education is made to cost a truly exorbitant amount, and is supposedly worth it.
Come on.
I know the teachers in college slack off! DX >_<
That is so not worth it. Just let me study and learn and get on with my life, puh-leeaaase. >___<
XD
Anyway, this conversation obviously came to the no-job thing, and she was reminded that the library was hiring! She gave me an application and a 'hiring' paper with the juicy details on it, and with this happiness abounding, I positively hopped up the stair like a fairy, singing the chorus to Dulaman on my way. X3
I'd gotten there late, but I made it to the meeting!
The meeting was fine. Suggestions for books, cds, dvds, and cosplays abounding! I think some of them are signing up for Fanimecon! (I probably shouldn't have suggested it. XD I'm worrying over them now. Keep in mind I'm the oldest teenager in the group at nineteen years old-the oldest you can possibly be while being a teenager. @_@; Twenty ends the teen years. u.u Sadness...
The others are eleven through sixteen at best, but the majority of the oldest are just fourteen years old. @_@;
Yes, these are the kids I hang out with. XD Their immaturity shows sometimes more than others, but it's because they're young. X3 I can forgive them, obviously. X3 They're still just kids, even if they're smarter than most kids their age. X3 Gotta give them that respect...
They're still mega hyper though. XD)
So I got home, bro opened the door, and I watched the anime I watch before I just stopped...
And I'd been signing away at the application when I ran across several problems. It asks not whether I've graduated from high school, but rather if I have my diploma.
Technically, no, but I should. @_@;
I mean, as far as my high school is concerned, I should have a diploma and would have one... iiiif they'd only sent it to me first. -_-
It's been six months now, I think.
They should have sent it to me after three or four months tops.
It's been SIX. -_-
I just needed to repeat that for my sake. -_-
Then there was the WPM/typing speed question. e_e
I figured 'probably thirty for accuracy, definitely upwards of ninety for plain speed.'
XD
But my fastest is definitely not my most accurate. XD
Soo I played Typer Shark and decided "Meh. Sixty five WPM average for a combination of speed and accuracy."
XD
After I revealed to mom out of necessity the fact that I had the application for the library page position for this library, she smiled at me... I'm not forgetting that smile. It made me so happy... it seemed approving and encouraging at the same time. crying
*teary eyed*
*wipes* >_<
Uh, yeah... XD
>_<
So after I told her the results of my game, she came out to play toooo! X3
While she was playing she said "So, I got a call from Chuy..."
Me: "Let me guess. He wants me back? XD"
Her: "... Yeah."
Me: "XD But, crap! >.<"
Her: "Yeah."
Me: "So what happened? Benny found she couldn't afford the day care after all?"
Her: "Well, the story is that Benny called Chuy and I guess she found out that she's not as rich as she thinks she is. D: *said with an attitude. XD*"
Me: "Of course."
Her: "He should have gotten you while he had you, but he had to listen to his stupid wife."
Me: "But they're no married are they? I thought she was just.. the mother of his children."
Her: "Yeah, they're not married, she's just his... baby... mama... drama!"
Me: XD *bust up laughing*
This was littered with checking on the beans, not wanting to mess up her game of Typer Shark, and finding out more.
So he wants me over there just as soon as he can get me, but here's my issue: It's April. Busiest month, as far as birthdays are concerned. I have four or five friends who all have birthdays this month. So far, two down. DX Danni, Henry, happy birthday!
Hey, I just remembered-wasn't a friend of mine born on the second of April? It caused me to go WTF because I was all "Oh man, three birthdays three days in a row! DX" XD
But ******** if I can't remember which friend that was! Dessy's birthday is also this month, but I forget when: the seventeenth or the twentieth? It's somewhere in the middle of the month! DX I'm scattered! And then there's Chii sama-holy hell! DX
Her birthday is being celebrated this Friday or this Saturday-I'm not even sure anymore, but I think they changed it to this Friday. XD
Plus, next month in May, we have Fanimecon over memorial day weekend! I can't just leave for a month, come back for four to five days, and then leave again just like that! DX
If he wants me as soon as possible, he's going to have to wait til after May. DX
I'll miss my vacation with my family at Clearlake... crying
But I do want to help him out.
I know mom said not to feel obligated, but that's BS to me.
If a family member needs help and I can provide it, of course I'm going to want to help them! It's hardly even a question!
How can I not help when he needs my help and he's essentially asked me for it? (Albeit through my mom, but yeh. -_-)
The thing is, I can already see that I'm going to have problems with Benny. -_-
The reason I didn't leave on that April Third flight they were planning is because Benny was all "Oh... I think I have enough money to send the girls to daycare! We don't need her!"
So, being the wimp to Benny that my darling uncle has been far, far too many times now, he acquiesced to her argument so he dropped the offer. -_-
Fast forward maybe just one month later...
"She was full of s**t. I need Paula to baby sit the girls." (This humble author's interpretation, mind you. XD It's just the way I see it, guys and gals. It's just the way I see it...)
So, I'm needed again. -_-
This is fluctuating way too month. Make your mind up and hold fast too it. It's (steadfast decisiveness) something I admire in people because it's something I lack when it comes to some issues that aren't my virginity or my
anti-alcohol/anti-smoking/anti-drugs stance, which I am steadfast on. X3
I admire that in me. biggrin I can't help it. I'm proud of myself for those unswaying decisions. n_n;
So, yeh.
Chicago is back on... but I know I'm going to butt heads with Benny somehow, I just know it.
I'm not one to initiate conflict unless the person is saying something illogical or unknowledgeable or just plain wrong and I recognize the lack of knowledge so I point it out-the mistake, that is. The other person will get defensive in the "I AM RIGHT, YOU POO POO HEAD!" perspective, while I defend myself and tell the truth as I see it in a "I'm sorry, but you're so wrong it should be a crime to be that damned wrong: and here is why!"
They never.. listen... -_-
I'm sorry, but she's caused this uncle of mine so much grief over the years that I just don't have much heart for her. Her only saving grace is that she's the mother of two of my little cousins, the mother of my uncle's children
(and one other guy's. -_- And she tried to say that I'D be the slut in that household? Chica, PLEASE! e_e Dream on, hoochie mama! >_< wink (Wow, the hoochie mama thing came out far more precise than it was intended to be, but it fits perfectly! XD)
Uncle Chuy promised mom that in the event that Benny would start getting bitchy, he would not allow her to bad mouth me... but... uh... I saw right away that she'd already tried to tarnish my integrity and he didn't really say anything... only let it slide. -_-
For my mom to hear...
and I don't know if my mom caught that fact.
She overheard her say "You're going to let a twenty year old baby sit our kids??" in that snotty voice of hers.
b***h, I AIN'T YOU! scream
... Hey, I can get mouthy too! stressed
I just generally prefer peace. n_n
X3
*sigh*
I guess I now have to put not only that separate page job possibility on hold-I now have to put this one on hold as well. -_-
I want definite answers, people. When am I going (after May, but when's the departure/pick up date?), how much will you really be able to afford to pay me, just short of expenses, et al, and how the hell am I going to make it without an internet connection for all those years? DX One presumes she'll be going to college in Chicago if that's the case, but then how am I going to take care of the girls if I'm in college?! >.< Time is valuable, people, and mine is being stretched in too many directions for my liking! DX I need substance, uncle and mama. I need something tangible-something real.
No more prospects and possibilities. Make the possibilities go from a definite maybe to a definite OH GOD YES! =D
X3
I want the possibilities to be real where it can be good.
Let them be real. I'm tired of being strung around, guys. I'm a dreamer, but it doesn't mean that I constantly live in my dream state. I know the waking world from the dream world. Don't confuse the two for my sake, please! DX
... I think my keyboard's broken. -_- It keeps pausing on me from time to time, for long periods of time. It's getting to be seriously annoying. -_-
Oh well! That's the rant for today's (oh god, not again! -_-) or rather yesterday's events!
Hope to see it happening again soon! XD
(It's hard to love somebody that you're not in touch with daily...
So tonight I'm gonna meet somebody at the ceili! X3)
 Sakura Moonflower · Wed Apr 04, 2007 @ 11:27am · 0 Comments |
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