Hey everybody.
Today I thought that I would be super Hyper or something but surprisingly I'm not, just really really tired.
By the way it is my 15th Birthday today. It is also my friend's (katie) Birthday today. I am only 58 minutes older than her. Hehehe. Makes me feel like I have a twin. Sad thing is we don't look alike at all. Ha!
Anyway. This weekend I had a party right. It was really fun. We went to the park in the dark and played grounders. Then we got sick of that and played Marco Polo in the feild of ice. >.< Kailyn was it and me and Jess G was stalking her and so Kailyn ended up on the road walking away from us. Well a car was coming and we started screaming "KAILYN THERES A CAR COMING" so Jess G ran up and grabbed her before the car came by and Kailyn all of a sudden was like "MARCO" and smacked Jess across the head and said "Your It". So I think it was part of her little paln. She can be very sneaky at times. ROFL! NAH she couldnt be even if she tried.
Well today was horrid I say JUST HORRID! I fell down the stair and now my spinal cord is badly bruised and my knees are bruised to the point where I cant even kneel on them. T-T
I had to play tennis today and that was probably the only real good part about today. It took my pain away and Mr.Martin aka Tom ((my tennis coach)) said that he is going to try me a girl partner that can actually hit the ball cause right now I am the only girl that is ACTUALLY HITTING THE BALL. I have a wicked front hand and serve but my back hand is horrible. So I need to work on that, but other than that my tennis skill are improving rapidly.
Well today I thought that it would go by better, but it didn't. My friend Katie is all depressed. My brother ((Shaun)) didn't even wish me a happy birthday this morning. Nobody except for Jess Grey at school wished me a happy birthday. ((I had to remind them)) So then all day everybody was saying "Happy birthday" to me and Katie in a guilty ton. Which drove both of us crazy. Well then after school I had tennis which went well as you can see up above. My grandma came and picked me and told me that I was having super at her place((which I though was nice of her)) We then had lemon cake and my grandma gave me a card with $25.00 in it and she said she didn't know what to get me. Then she drove me home cuase I had science homework to do. When I got home, nobody was home...and still no one is home. But I did find a card from my mom and it had a really pretty poem in it. Now only if she would be there to while I opened it. But no she is out working like always. I hardly ever get to see her anymore which makes me sad. but yah. So I am sitting here all alone on my b-day getting even more sad by the moment. I was going to say depressed....but I'm not quite there yet. ^.^
But yah. I am extremely pissed off now becuase my brother drank all of my Coke and we had bought a 12 pack just yesterday and now it is gone. !! It doesnt suprise me that all the pop cans are in his room or the basement.!!
But yes I cant really think of anything else at the moment except that...well I just dont like being an emo on my birhtday......*cries in dark corner with empty can of coke*
I wish the world would just die already.
My new favourite song by EMINEM
Mocking Bird
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right
now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never
had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night
crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in
a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole
it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.
Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like
it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're
sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)
I also love Mario WInans at the moment. He is I swear the next usher if not better.
Anyways I guess I should go. I promise to myself to work on my quest.
Oh and thank you AManda and Kailyn for the birthday presents.
And thank you Kaji Yuki Aichi for your present too!!
I harts you all!!
Lots of love and if I think of anything later tonight then I will add on here. !!!
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