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I'm a mess right now. I feel like a train wreck. I just wanna fall over and die.

I think she's mad at me.

For those of you who don't know, look at my journal entry for January 26, then this.

I swear...he had it coming...he sooo did...but nobody cares about my side of the story...*sigh*

..Well at lunch, I was drinking some Coke. Her bf came up and Emo-Raped me(he shoved his knee up my a**, but HARD! OWWW!!!) and I ended up spewing and spilling Coke all over my shirt. I had to get my mom to bring me another shirt and change in the bathroom!! But, here's the thing...I doused him with some of the Coke. It wasn't anywhere NEAR as much as he had gotten on me.

He started acting all emo, and everyone was comforting him, while I was there, a** sore as all Hell, dripping Coke everywhere. And after lunch, when the bell rang, I looked at my bff, and she looked away, brushed past me and ignored me. After school, she didn't say anything to me and left with her bff like I didn't exist. I don't know what to do! He had that coming!

I don't deserve this treatment. I don't know what I've done wrong. Someone help me...save what's left of the shattered pieces before they crumble into something too small to keep...and I fade away into nothing, as I already have to her.

Life is a cruel mistress who does nothing but torment you until you break and fade into nothing. Shatters you and kills you slowly. Destroys your hope, and your will to live.

How much worse must things get
Before I can recover?
My hope is lost to the darkness
And I'm breaking.
My heart is destroyed
And meaningless.
My tears mean nothing,
Nothing to the one.
I'm in pain from the misery
That has befallen me.
And I don't know...
What to do...


Someone hold me together. I'm falling apart bit by bit, and no one cares.

Don't let me break...please...someone help me...