I'm saying this in my journal cause then i have this somewhere i can read while i type and feel better. And also solve the problem by seeing what it is and then maybe how stupid it my be and such. Well you get my point if you are reading this. or can due to size and color.
I was talking to my BF and well when he said he had to go and the reason why. It sort of confused me because it wasn't even 11:30pm and usually with that reason of needing to go, he usually doesn't say it till 12:30 am. I was sad and i told him when he asked me, and he said was there something else well sort of yeah just what i didn't say that to me it was odd. Though he was like said two things before he said goodnight and I knew he was going to leave and it didn't give me the chance to tell him the wierd part so it just kind of hurt. and what's the point then of telling someone if they think they are wrong and now have said good night for basicly good of that night. It's like embarssing and what's the point now of ever saying anything. But it again also hurt and when he just left after i said blink and all that i was ready to cry... Stupid really and I mean he does need rest.. but it just was so odd to me.
And I guess I got all teary eyed is because i missed him so much and the other day this so called friend of mine who i got her pissed at me which she shouldn't have since i was standing up for this girl since that "friend" was being a total b***h towards her. And that "friend" threatened to tell my mother about me and my boyfriend and i was feeling what if my mom believe her and I could see him for like two years. I know two years may not seem alot, but i mean it is when just not talking to them for a day or more kills you and makes you miss them and not being able to see them on weeks upon weeks ends.
But i mean the worst that she could do to destroy my life is to make him turn on me which is impossible for her to even try to do. But that may have been why i got so emotional and plus it being odd.-ish feeling better-
 Rikku42 · Sun Sep 10, 2006 @ 07:39am · 0 Comments |
