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*helps*
So as I turned from the computer in order to get to the kitchen to wash the dishes, Carlos starts screaming at me to wash the dishes. -_-
Then, when I've just started washing the dishes as it stands, he tells me to pick up my prom shoes and a pair of socks in not so many nice words. -_- Of course he gets extremely insistant (scratch that, demanding.... commanding. No, demanding. Childish weiner...) and I'm looking at him somewhat agape and ask "Now?! eek "
"What the ******** do you think I mean? YEAH, NOW scream !"
"I just started the dishes and you want me to do that now? sweatdrop "
"YEAH NOW scream evil !"
"Can it wait until I finish washing the dishes??! gonk stressed "
"Paula, I ******** told you already-you better do it now! scream "
After having done that, I get back to the dishes with him bitching at my brother and I the entire time. In the meantime, here's me trying to keep calm but I'm majorly pissed off. I really, really hate angry yelling and it makes me impatient, especially if it's directed at me or someone close to me, like my brother or mother. Yes, even my brother, although we're not really close at all. He's still my freaking half brother...
So, he chooses to do THIS after I've already returned to the goddamned dishes for more washing. "I WANT YOU TO PICK UP THIS PAPER FROM THE ******** BATHROOM FLOOR! I'M TIRED OF YOUR LAZY ASSES LEAVING s**t ON THE FLOOR ALL THE ******** TIME!" and it goes on...
-_-
Meanwhile, of course I was washing the dishes and I'm like "Now? AGAIN?! Can't this wait?!!"
"What do you mean 'again'? YES you have to do it RIGHT NOW!!"
So by this point in time I want to cry and as I'm rinsing my hands of the soap, thinking that I could have finished with the dishes without so much distress or so many distractions and without having to use up as much soap because I have to ******** rinse my hands, go do the MINIMAL TASK HE WANTS ME TO DO BECAUSE I ABSOLUTE HAS TO BE DONE RIGHT ******** NOW OR HE'S GOING TO BEAT ME UP AND THE GODDAMN WORLD IS GONNA END IF I DON'T STOP WHAT I'M DOING JUST TO DO THAT DAMNED MINIMAL, AND IF I DON'T IMMEDIATELY RETURN TO WHATEVER I WAS ORIGINALLY DOING SUCH AS, OH, 'WASHING THE DAMNED DISHES!' THEN I'M A LAZY s**t!!
What the hell, man?!
Even so, I picked it up, RETURNED to my still unfinished set of dirty dishes YET AGAIN and started washing AGAIN, and he's STILL bitching at us while he's not doing a damned thing himself.
At some point while I was very nearly yelling at him and he was yelling at me, my brother asked us to stop the damned yelling and ******** Carlos threw a nicotine patch at him!
stressed *wants to kill the stepfather of much doom*
I swear to god, never have I wanted to commit homicide/murder than within that one particularly emotionally taxing minute. He's yelling at me and calling ME lazy while I'm doing my goddamned chores and yet all he's ******** doing is yelling at us and calling us lazy? Yeah. Irony maybe, but definitely MUCH hypocrisy.
What really, REALLY pisses me off is when he doesn't allow us to express our anger physically or with words. I mutter to myself because it at least makes me feel better and ergo calmer, but then he's like "WHAT DID YOU SAY? HUH b***h? IMMA JACK YO s**t UP, BETTA RECANIZE!"
GRUUUUUGH!! I JUST WANNA HURT HIM SO MUCH!! scream stressed What good is enduring this irritating s**t if I can't even be allowed to let off steam? That really pisses me off!! GODS, COULD YOU ******** LET ME LET IT OUT, ALREADY!!
*is actually crying by this point* I don't like holding it in, alright?? I'm ******** human... and I seem to have extremely emotional genes in me as well, because pretty much all Arce's are big crybabies and I am no exception to that rule. If someone tries to contain me from expressing my irritation or my sadness or especially my anger, then all that pressure builds up IMMEDIATELY and I especially need to let it out before I literally bite someone's head off!!
*Wipes her tears*
Gosh... I feel a lot better now.... n_n;
 Sakura Moonflower · Wed May 24, 2006 @ 04:07am · 1 Comments |
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