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I know I complain a lot, but I'm sick as s**t right now and having surgery to fix the placement of my kneecaps because they're causing me so much pain soon AND to get my wise teeth removed... my medical bills are unbelievable, and I HAVE insurance, for now... David's birthday is next month on the tenth... This is the fourth year he's been gone... still feels like he's just going to come from college one day and hug me like he always did... Twelve days after the tenth, and I'll be 21... I don't want my body to keep aging... no one around me is helping like I need them to even though I tell them what paperwok I need from where and only they have the numbers for these places.... I'm going to be pissy for the next for days, just a warning since my Lantus (long lasting insulin) won't be able to keep my bloodsugar in check because I have one day's worth and the next shipment won't be here until Saturday. I ask my mother to order one of my most important medications and the whore forgets!! I asked her two months ago. I asked herfour weeks ago if it was shipping and she just said yeah and so I thought it was alright until I'm down to my last box and now she's pissed at me as if it's MY fault!! I can't see that well!! I ask her to order these things because I'm ******** going blind in one eye!!! I'm a slow typer right now because I have to check over every word that I type because my fingers write things my brain isn;t thinking...

Anyways, I hate them all but why do I ******** miss those cocksucking thundercunts?!!?! They abandon me when I need them and the last thing I remember from our last talk was one of them saying, "I'd rather be eating my breakfast right now than talking to you". I said fine and they walked off then rubbed it in by saying the messages I poured my ******** heart into were 'creepy'. How would I know if they didn't talk to me for six months?!?!? Hope they get caught drinking and smoking pot and go to jail....