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First entry of 2008

Body: Take Some Time and actually Read this

this is a GUY TALKING...

IT'S 7TH GRADE...

I stared at the girl next to me...She was my so called "best friend"... I stared at her... Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But she didn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before... And I handed them to her... She said "thanks"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S JUNIOR YEAR...

My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart... She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone... So I did... As I sat next to her on the sofa... I stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2 hours... A Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She decided to go to sleep... She looked at me.. Said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to tell her... And I don't know why...

IT'S SENIOR YEAR...

The day before prom... She walked to my locker... "My date is sick" she said... He's not going to go... Well... I didn't have a date and in 7th grade... We made a promise that if neither of us had dates... We'd go together just as "best friends"... And so we did...

IT'S PROM NIGHT...

After everything was over with... I was standing at her front door step... I stared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me like that... And I know it... Then she said "I had the best time... Thanks!"... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S GRADUATION DAY...

A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I could blink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect body... Floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me that way... And I know it... Before everyone went home... She came to me in her smock and hat... And cried as I hugged her... Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend"... "Thanks!"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to tell her.. I wanted to know that I wanted to be more than "just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy... And I don't know why...

IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER...

Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is getting married in now... I watched her say "I do" an drive off to her new life... Married to another man... I wanted her to be mine... But she didn't see me like that... And I knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me and said "You came!... Thanks!"... And she kissed me on the cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wantd her to know that I didn't want to be "just friends"... I love her but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...

YEARS PASSED...

I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years... This is what it said... "I stare at him... Wishing he was mine... But he doesn't notice me like that... And I know it... I wanted to tell him... I wanted him to know... That I don't want to be "just friends"... I love him but I'm just too shy... And I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me"... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I cried...

"Where there's hatred, so justice. Where there's injury, pardon. Where there's doubt, hope. May a swift and certain death befall anyone who stands in my way. Ain't much of a prayer, but it sounds good."
-Richard B. Riddick

gunslinger_shep · Wed Jan 09, 2008 @ 02:13am · 8 Comments


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	That's deep shep... tear I really mean that Offline XxTattooPunkxX · Community Member · Thu Jan 10, 2008 @ 01:21am


	dang your on and i have to go but tommorow can u get on at 7:30 if u can ill be on but right now i g2g sry......bye. o yeah how r u and your gf going? i cant wait to see her it will be cool but idk what tigercat will do like saying something about what happened with us but hopefully she doesnt but...........bye! biggrin Offline zoey4737 · Community Member · Mon Jan 14, 2008 @ 02:00am


	why does she think u cheated on her? thats weird because u never did cheat on her right question Offline zoey4737 · Community Member · Tue Jan 15, 2008 @ 08:01pm


	ok um....sry that i didnt get on at 7:30 like i said i would...and my bro was on and he wouldnt get off so sry about that sweatdrop but when is she ever going to get on shes never on when im on and sometimes your on when im on but shes never on when were both on i dont get it question Offline zoey4737 · Community Member · Thu Jan 17, 2008 @ 08:12pm


	now that i think about that its kind of like seize the day... seize the day of die regreting Offline XxTattooPunkxX · Community Member · Thu Feb 07, 2008 @ 11:16pm


	o my....hey who is jessica? and also...i want to tlk, its important i wish u were on....i can't believe that story it remeinds me of....someone, i feel aweful now, i wish i knew u better r u depressed as much as i am? we really really need to tlk alot, like constantly really, i can't stay away for long ur like a drug lol, but seriousely we need, no i want, and i'm so selfishly greedy for this, i want and need to tlk to u desperatly is that what i've become over these years befor i met u? desperat, must be, i'm pathetic arent i? wait don't answer that, i wish i knew u but i'm scared to get close, i wish i new you but i know the cost, i wish i wasnt so stupid falling like this, will u catch me? or do i keep on falling until the light fade's, darkness serounds me and the cold stony rocks crush and maim my body? do i die, or do i live?...i mean that metiphoricly u know ifeel lke i'm putting preasure on u but i dont know, its so confusing i havent felt like this to ANYONE befor, its odd, i feel strange, my heart races when i open ur mail and i can't seem to breath right. am i breathing, its hard to tell, no i'm falling, the breath leaving me, it rushes out so fast, not a single word can escape from my cold lips, is it cold? its hard to tell...it's so hard to tell. i'm terrible tlk to u like this, all i'm doing is getting closer adn closer, danm me! y do i do this, i dont want anyone to get hurt, but it seems like there's a line now, a line of people waiting their turn, i'm stuck, i'm a statue inside a glass case, my cold mask begining to break, cracking chipping, i'm dieing, its over i knwo. THis isnt right i'm wrong to do this to u, ur a good person-but i can't say it, i can't say what i long to cause i am unsure, its dark now, the light is gone, i can't see, no light, not above or below, how long has it been...am i still falling, i can't feel, the mask is reparing, its covering me again, i dont want-no its done i can see through it but no one will know me, no one will know me, no one will now the REAL me, never.....only the perosn they belive to be me, six years of practive on controling emotion, on covering myself in the once fragil paper matchey mask, now its like it's really me, i can't see, its dark....i'm alone. (only the hair and body type, click on it to c) http://i237.photobucket.com/albums/ff176/Nataliii_02/AnimeGirl30water.jpg [/url Offline lonly Wolf 001 · Community Member · Sat Feb 09, 2008 @ 12:45am


	Wow O-O. THAT...was amazing. U are great!! Offline Believe in Dent · Community Member · Sun Feb 10, 2008 @ 12:39am


	thats really sad... crying srry...but to me...it was a little funny too.... xd Offline 8847e48362909 · Community Member · Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 09:28pm

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