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Duality
~ Slipkont

I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

................................................................

It's another wasteland. A deserted and infested gorge,
plaqued with hate, sorrow, and despair. I'll never have
anything. I'll never deserve anything. All I have is darkness.
It kills my heart, contaminates my brain, and makes my
personality and life vile and wretched beyond comparison.
All I wanted was that one thing, but it's obviously everyone's
goal in life to deny me that right, that right of all humans.
To sit under their feet, as they destroy love, kill happiness,
******** and rape each other as I cry and watch those I love or
loved be forced or willingly join in with the wicked passtimes.
All I want is to escape. I thought love would give me that, but
that is the very thing these people wish to keep me from.
Even those I love.....