i know ur talking about me just end it already if ur ******** done jesus christ i cannot stand a jealous mf i said i felt bad but i dont. not one bit. i really dont care. what i do in my life is my business and knowing that i have to walk on eggshells with any choice that i make just triggers the "i dont give a ******** about you" part of my trauma brain starting to wonder if im even capable of loving another human. i barely feel anything for my immediate family. the only reason i know i love them is because im comfortable in their presence and id be sad if they disappeared. but even then im so ******** numb 24/7 that i cant fathom being sad about it? brain is weird for that one when me and jordan split after being together for 6 years i felt nothing. the worst part about the split was getting used to the change in environment. i can talk to him now with no emotions at all i cant have fun with someone else without you getting jealous i know you dont act on it and dont go out your way to make me feel bad about it but vague posting when i know exactly what ur talking about is pretty funny lol idk im tired of needing to like, monitor someone elses emotions for everything that i do. im tired of being thoughtful of others. i want to be selfish for once even if that makes me the bad guy shrug
djwhitebooty · Wed Jul 05, 2023 @ 06:24pm · 0 Comments |