as i sit here, with my own problems, i am forced to help others,
no1 helps me, they look at me for help,
but how, why,
why am i to help them,
i do anyways,
but each time i fail,
their depression grows more,
and as i look around,
all of the smiling faces i once knew are now grey, pale, dead like,
all after they got to know me, and i got to know them,
i wonder if i am bad,
if i'm the type of person who drags down others,
everyone i know is having problems, and i end up in the middle of them,
i want everyone to be happy,
i want everything for people to be the same way it used to be before they met me,
i'm a bad kid,
i bring maddness and darkness with me, from me,
i infect all of those around me with the dark shadows in me,
i sit in the corner of the room wanting to die,
everything goes wrong for me, but goes worse for the people who become my "friend".
i'm not fit to be a human,
i want to grow without darkness,
i want to find where i belong in life,
where i stand as a person.
lonley days,
all bye myself,
names being called,
and i take steps away from friends,
i dont want them to hurt anymore,
i dont want to hurt,
as i sit by myself, alone, cold,
i feel the warmth of hands,
one wiping my tears,
the other on my shoulder,
i turn to look, two angels are there,
just when i was about to give up, about to die,
these two loves have come to save me, to show me,
to show me what i've done for them,
and what they've done for me,
tall and skinny, hansom and sweet,
i pick myself up and hug him,
the warmth of his body,
the safe and comfort of his body,
i take my head off of his shoulder and look in his eyes,
he kisses me with a his soft lips,
i kiss back,
i can see light in the world once dark and black,
i hug him again not wanting to ever let go,
but the other hand touches my back once more,
i turn to see,
i realized who it was,
beautiful, light, always a smile, and has giggles that make me giggle along,
the person i call sister,
i let go from my love to hug my sister,
as we hug, we start laughing,
my tears are gone,
laughter and joy is back,
i look back at my love and see him laughing along,
then i look around,
the earth is light,
colorful,
i see the others who stand there,
they look at me with smiles,
their faces not deathly anymore,
happy to see me,
happy i'm alive,
but i tell them to thank the two who saved me,
the two who showed and helped my life go from dark to light
i'm soo glad i have you.......Leslie...and Josh
no1 helps me, they look at me for help,
but how, why,
why am i to help them,
i do anyways,
but each time i fail,
their depression grows more,
and as i look around,
all of the smiling faces i once knew are now grey, pale, dead like,
all after they got to know me, and i got to know them,
i wonder if i am bad,
if i'm the type of person who drags down others,
everyone i know is having problems, and i end up in the middle of them,
i want everyone to be happy,
i want everything for people to be the same way it used to be before they met me,
i'm a bad kid,
i bring maddness and darkness with me, from me,
i infect all of those around me with the dark shadows in me,
i sit in the corner of the room wanting to die,
everything goes wrong for me, but goes worse for the people who become my "friend".
i'm not fit to be a human,
i want to grow without darkness,
i want to find where i belong in life,
where i stand as a person.
lonley days,
all bye myself,
names being called,
and i take steps away from friends,
i dont want them to hurt anymore,
i dont want to hurt,
as i sit by myself, alone, cold,
i feel the warmth of hands,
one wiping my tears,
the other on my shoulder,
i turn to look, two angels are there,
just when i was about to give up, about to die,
these two loves have come to save me, to show me,
to show me what i've done for them,
and what they've done for me,
tall and skinny, hansom and sweet,
i pick myself up and hug him,
the warmth of his body,
the safe and comfort of his body,
i take my head off of his shoulder and look in his eyes,
he kisses me with a his soft lips,
i kiss back,
i can see light in the world once dark and black,
i hug him again not wanting to ever let go,
but the other hand touches my back once more,
i turn to see,
i realized who it was,
beautiful, light, always a smile, and has giggles that make me giggle along,
the person i call sister,
i let go from my love to hug my sister,
as we hug, we start laughing,
my tears are gone,
laughter and joy is back,
i look back at my love and see him laughing along,
then i look around,
the earth is light,
colorful,
i see the others who stand there,
they look at me with smiles,
their faces not deathly anymore,
happy to see me,
happy i'm alive,
but i tell them to thank the two who saved me,
the two who showed and helped my life go from dark to light
i'm soo glad i have you.......Leslie...and Josh
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