Good grief. I don't know.
I was so bored in drivers ed that I had to make up inside jokes... with myself! I do usually get bored in that class but today was magnified by the presence of the dreaded sub, Mrs. Brubaker... sooooo boring. *sobs*
Of course, it didn't help that I hung out with the little boys yesterday. We played with paper airplanes for well over an hour.
Yeah so that shot my mentality and I ended up drawing a picture of a falling meese/mooses sign. Man, sometimes I scare myself.
The sad thing is, I was still laughing about that in comp. We were in the library to look at political cartoons so it wasn't as bad as me sitting in the middle of class chuckling to myself. In comp a dude said I looked pretty today and I returned the compliment to him. You know, it makes me wonder what someone else thinks...
... Man, part of me wants to do some and the other part wants to strangle the first part for even thinking that way. I'm physically, emotionally, and mentally torn:
Side 1- "Do it, for you have nothing to lose. He won't hate you for liking him, and if he were to, it's not like you interact with him all of the time."
Side 2- "No, don't. You have had so many crushes. What makes this one special? It's not fair to him."
Side 1- "Ah but you see, in saying that it's not fair to him, you've admitted that you like him enough to care how he feels. And this time is so different than all of your other crushes."
Side 2- "It's only different because you fell for him without him flirting, talking, or even making eye contact with you first. If you really liked him, you'd atleast talk to him, you wuss."
Side 1- "You honestly do want to do something but it needs to be the right time and place... You were going to leave him a v-day note and when that didn't work out you wanted to atleast tell him something. But that didn't work out either so you must do something more random and spontaneous. Yeah that's right, you could be spontaneous!"
Side 2- "Pfft, like that is ever going to happen."
Side 3- *breaks out into Cinderella song* "It's imposible. For the world is full of zanies and fools who don't believe in sensible rules..."
Side 4- *Sings off key* "What do fools, fall in love.. tell me why do they fall in looooooooooove????"
Side 5- "Good God, shoot me now!"
So as you can see, I am a freaking pentagon on this matter. I wish I could just be like everyone else and know exactly what I want out of life and go for it, no matter what it takes...
But no, I have to be me.
Anyway, the rest of my school day was normal.. well, with the exception of my little world of meese/mooses that I glided into and out of for the rest of the day.
Japanese was fun. We practiced kanji with a lovely little game and almost everybody cheated *shakes an angry fist at Shane, and Brian, and Dave, and even Max*. Darn guys...
I have a Japanese kanji quiz and a stats test tomorrow, and a chem test on friday. I also have to cover my freaking Japanese book with a prettiful collage, practice my netta, write a note to someone, reorganize the contents of my bookbag, write a comp journal, get a check for $104 for band, clean my room, read The Scarlet Letter make and eat dinner, and whatever else I can come up with between now and bed.
Quote:
Life-The prolonging of our inevitable death.
Love-An infectious disease that leads one to "fall for" another, leaving the person with no one but depression and hatred as their friend in the end. The slowest form of suicide.
Happiness-A temporary mental disorder that leaves the infected to believe that life is a good thing and that all things will "work out in the end"
Love-An infectious disease that leads one to "fall for" another, leaving the person with no one but depression and hatred as their friend in the end. The slowest form of suicide.
Happiness-A temporary mental disorder that leaves the infected to believe that life is a good thing and that all things will "work out in the end"
Amen Chris...
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Well...if it make you unhappy I will stop trying to convince you.
I will instead work on trying to convince myself that the scarf I'm holding goes with my shirt, and wondering how fast I can eat the bowl of ice cream sitting on my computer stand. It's melting..so I'd hope pretty darn quick.
Gaah...I sat outside on Sean's car for a half an hour after school today... but I think that was a good thing. Gave us some time to cool off from this morning, and we're good now.
But then again we're not really ones to hold grudges. Ya'll know that...
But it worked out, cause I just sat on his car and waved goodbye to everyone that drove by.
Some gave me strange looks. xd
Ooh...Easter is soon! CANDY CANDY CANDY!! YEE-HAW! heart whee
Just what I need..more candy/chocolate.
*cranes neck* Gaah...does my butt look big in these pants?
I'll try to convince myself that it doesn't.
*isn't working*
heart ya.