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I walk here,
Away from all of them,
Into my cold darkness,
I let myself drown,
Chocked by loneliness,
All emotion fades but one,
That one emotion that can never leave,
Even after hate evaporates,
Fear crumbles, and sorrow fades,
It's still there,
And it is the reason that I toment myself,
If not for it, I'd be dead,
If not for it, no one would worry,
I would be gone,
Freeing everyone of their worries,
A thorn I am,
A snake even,
The poison in their lives,
I just want to forget it,
So I can leave,
It's not that I'm hated or scorned,
I'm just blandly left,
Nothing to them,
Another shadow,
I may entertain momentarily,
But when they leave, I'm nothing,
They don't love me,
Yet neither do they hate,
I remember them all,
And love certain ones so deeply,
Yet they leave me,
With little more than indifference,
I'm nothing to them,
And want it to change....