Meh....Random journal entry XD yay! Since gym started this term I've been sore almost everyday gonk that at least tells me I'm gaining something...hopefully X___X Hopefully at the end of gym I will be in much better shape! x3 Then after that hopefully I can workout ever wednesday and friday so I can get some extra muscles in meh arms and so I can lose some of that fat around my waist >.<!
....My hand is huring as I type this too at the moment for some reason o.O
A friend of mine isn't..well a friend anymore I guess you could say ;-; I don't know why....so I have no idea how I can learn and make sure not to make the same mistakes again. Unlike some people at times, I'm willing to at least make an attempt to change [sig is the one I say doesn't make an attempt e.e; maybe she does, but I don't notice .__.;]....Makes me sad on the inside to not know if it was me, or if it was them thinking something. I usually don't have friends telling me they don't want to be my friend anymore....usually they just slowly drift from my circle of friends and become acquaintences....but when it's flat out said....It's something I take very personally and it makes me angsting and obsessing to try and figure out what I did; what I can to try and fix that.
Meh....if it has anything to do with me being self centered and or something to do with wanting attention....then yeah, I guess I do that sometimes. I like to know if I'm doing something wrong, or if I'm doing good because if I don't know or have at least a little recognition, then I really don't know since sometimes my self esteem might not be high enough or whatever that sometimes I just can't make the judgement by myself. I'll probably be the first..or perhaps second to admit that. I can't help it. Everyone, in my opinion, seeks attention for something at some point in their life [not counting when you're a baby...that's just kind of instincts...nature...or whatever it is o.O]
X____X BAH! Done speaking for now before I possibly dig myself any deeper into the continual deepening hole of my life. It'll get better...then I say something horribly STUPID to get it deeper .__.;
Current mood emoticon thingy: @____@
M00sic: Hatoshi Sakimoto - Opening Movie [Theme of FINAL FANTASY XII)
 MilleniaTetsuren · Thu Nov 30, 2006 @ 01:54am · 0 Comments |
