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This is how the world ends. Not with a bang, but a whimper. |
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And maybe one lone guy shouting "******** you" at the univers. That's probably me. Arg. Take car in tonight, find out how much the ******** is going to cost tommorrow, pay rent sometime in between. I will either be broke, or have a broke car I can't afford to fix. Really no middleground, here. Just ******** one way, or ******** the other. I would rather be broke than have a broke car, but.. That's how it goes. 'm in the process of waiting again. We all are, in a way. When we're young, we're all in waiting mode #1; Waiting for Santa Claus. Then, when we figure out that santa ain't coming, we shift into mode #2; Waiting for rigor mortis. Now, as much as we want to beleive this isn't tru, it really is. We just fill the time between waiting with waiting for other things. Waiting for school, waiting for your next meal, waiting for your girlfriend/boyfriend, waiting for your next ********, waiting for your next sleep, waiting for your workday to be over. (I'm doing that now.) Life is waiting, intensified. We just metere it out into smaller chunks as to be more digestible. Guess there's nothing wrong with that. I can't really say one way or the other, since it's the standard human condition. Hell, look at Gaia. We're all waiting here, too. I'm waiting for housing and battle system. Some people are waiting to be made moderators. (hah!) Some people are just waiting for that gold, to get that item.. Then waiting for the next item they want. Everything is waiting. Sometimes, late at night, when time draws out like a blade, I can realize I'm waiting for something. I don't know what, maybe the end of the world. Or just the end of my little part in it. Not to say that I want to die, or I'm hoping I do.. It's just all there seems to be on the horizon. Well, that and the next gadget, game and computer upgrade.
Currently playing Skies of Arcadia. Snazzy so far. Might stay in my collection for longer than 2 weeks. One of the few entertaining GC RPG's available that isn't based on a card system. I dislike card-systems with some core part of my psyche. Don't ask me why, they just rub my fur backwards. Seems like my luck with RPG's is very shoddy lately. Star Ocean was good, but.. less than directed, the plot getting lost too easily. Nifty smithing system, but just couldn't hold my attention. Arc the lad. Same issue.. Storyling was too drawn out, and couldn't really hold my attention. Liked the battle system, but.. Not enough. Binned. Shin megume Tensei Nocturne: Still sitting on my shelf, unplayed for 2 months. Loved the monster system, but the goddamn difficulty is too much like brick wall after brick wall. You hit new monsters, have your a** thuroughly reamed, then get to the point where you can handle them. Move onto next a**-reaming. No comfort of a "safe zone" everything is hostile and out to make you into small chunks. I've almost binned it several times, but the monster system seems to have some cryptic hold over me. Not strong enough to actually play the damn game, but strong enough so I don't trade that little b*****d in for store credit. We'll see. This all makes me wonder, what am I looking for in an RPG? I can answer that in one, not quite a word. KOTOR. Knights of the old republic. This game has some fantastic playability, even touching on my item-hoarding tendancies.
See, Items in games are only worth something if they affect two things : Appearance and effectiveness, or, passively make me ******** badass. That's it. Diablo 2 had it, Champions of norrath has it, Arcadia has it (to a very limited degree, borderline not even there. like the FF series, only weapons change form.) Mind you, base building and ship building are another fantastic element. Suikoden II had the "collection" aspect in characters and base-building, which was fantastic. Arcadia has the ship and base building, with a smaller crew-collection aspect. May be the saving grace of the game for me. But kotor.. ahh.. Kotor. Blood-thirsty robots intent on calling me a "meatbag" and ripping foes to shreds. A balanced good/evil system with obvious choices, weapon and armor collecting that effects your character appearance and abilities, and last but not ******** least.. Jedi. I mean, come on. It's the FORCE, man. Items even have backstories! That's just quality, right there. Hell, even the battle system does live-turn based with such flow it seems like turns are nonexistant, yet you never feel pressured. You never scream "HOSHIT" and watch your lovely jedi die. No, you just watch him hack things to bits with a laser-ginsu, and knock s**t around with sheer force of will.
So, KOTOR II is coming. (Already out for Xbox, but forget xbox. My pc will be the only bearer of this lovely, lovely fruit.) At the time when my money is nearly nonexistant, KOTOR II is coming. I've seen the screenshots, I'm actually looking forward to robes. Yes, ROBES. Capes.. Flowing garments. That's how sickly addicted I am to this budding series. This may require therapy. Once I get it, things will cease to matter. Dishes will pile up, the floor will remain dirty and unseeable, i will exist solely on caffiene and nicotine and jedi-induced joy. I can already predict this. Unless, barring the unthinkable, they ******** up the conversion. If that happens, I will fashion my own lightsaber, and proceed to lucasarts headquarters. They wouldn't dare.
Reading back over this post, I doubt anyone wille ver question my amer tendancies or ethics. Maybe my game choices, but not the ethics, man. Sadly, though, it seems that kotor II will be the last in a string of good game releases that this season spurred. Doom 3 (Terror-riffic.) Half-life 2 (so many good moments, it's like a slice of heaven, topped with a frothy physics engine that is responsible for most of my pleasure.) Vampire The masquerade: Bloodlines. (Glitch-tastic, but extremely compelling witha good weapon selection, and some of the sexiest, tastiest, pixel-generated vixens ever. Ever. Make you want to hump the screen, that good.) And with all this gaming goodness, it's starting to die down. No releases I'm really looking forward to, other than KOTOR, and that's most likely a good thing. My checkbook can't take the stress, it just doesn't have the power.
Twistex · Mon Jan 31, 2005 @ 03:31pm · 2 Comments |
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