Since it's only 6:10 in the morning, my first initial thoughts on writing what happened today would be "What the ********? I'm usually sleeping right now." But at 5:55 this morning, an important event happened. Now, you guys are probably all going to laugh at me and say that I'm a wimp or whatever for thinking something this big out of the simplest thing, but I don't care. Like I was saying, at 5:55, a life ended. It was a life that I thought I really didn't care about. It was a mouse. Now, I talked to some of you about this and I was annoyed as ******** or whatever and that I set out a single trap and blah blah blah. For some reason, I couldn't sleep last night. Then last night dragged into this morning. I woke up at 5:30 for no reason at all and just couldn't go back to sleep. I got my dog in here to try and see if that would work, and I almost got to sleep. At 5:55, right as I was drifting off to sleep, I heard a sickening snap. My first thoughts were that it was the mouse chewing through one of my computer wires and the "flopping around" sound afterwards was the crackling of the sizzling body. Yes, I know, gruesome. But for me, I think that would have been better since it would have been out of my sight. I mean, as soon as I heard the snap, I turned on my lamp and looked over at the trap. There, sitting right in front of me, was this helpless little creature caught in a death trap I myself had set. Because of me, that poor tiny mouse had suffered and gave its last breath in front of me. I know some of you think that I'm hard at heart, but seeing that... It almost made me break down and cry right on the spot. Now... I just don't know what to do with it. Its little dead body is still sitting in the trap right in front of me and I can't even have the inner strength to pick it up and dispose of it. But no, I have to wait for my dad to get up so he can do what I should do. I was inhuman enough to kill it, but my empathy is getting in the way of finishing the job. Could I be human after all?
R.I.P
Little Mouse
 Drassielle Zallizare · Mon Aug 28, 2006 @ 02:21pm · 0 Comments |
