Funeral is Friday...
I no one i know will be there to comfort me. All my brothers friends, sisters friend, mothers friends and grandmas friends[that arent dead yet] will be attending. My friends have told me they either cant go or refuse to go.
I get to be one of the barers.. one of them who carry the casket.. gonna be fun..
I can't handle the stress... Nearly everyone i know is activly avoiding me this week... And i.. I'm normally okay with being alone and ignored. its normally okay but.
I cant handle it right now. i cant handle the pity and the hollow 'im sorry's i get. i cant handle people telling me it will be okay. No. it wont be okay. it will never be okay again. he is dead. he is gone. it wont be the same, it wont be normal, it wont. be. okay. stop telling me it will. If my stress keeps rising i might just give in. I can't take it. I cant handle it alone. not anymore.
I might fade away.. Would anyone notice if i passed on?
-lue
 Lucifer Knightroad · Thu Jun 22, 2017 @ 04:45am · 0 Comments |
