every time i go on a dating site i just end up seeing how absolutely alone as an individual i am. basically i cant ever expect to find a gamer girl with no tattoos, likes to work out, that dosnt smoke, drink, or do drugs that is generally a good person, dosn't have a checklist of there perfect guy and will accept a guy with 1 leg that struggles emotionally (me). in all the time ive been single not 1 real interested person and 5 or less messages from people who write me off as quick as they can. i honestly almost wish i wasnt me. like i can accept drinking, i can accept tattoos, but what im saying is there is no such thing as perfect for me, and i will never ever be someones perfect. god i hate this. if im lucky and find a sweet soul that can truly love me for me again, i will never give up on them or stop trying. well, unless they tell me to, then ill stop, or try to stop. im trying to be better and do things out of my comfort zone but man it dosnt mater because i could have a great paying job, look amazing, have a great car and all those things, but it wont change who i am, and who i am feels like no one could love. people just think im judging, or that im a horrible person, that im mean and volatile, or that i use girls like trophies. but i dont and im not. im just a guy with intense insecurity and abandonment issues that just wants to find a perfect love. its just not fun being me when everyone sees what they want and what isnt there.
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