i was thinking. you know how some people play the mind game where they seem all hard to talk to and dont reply or message but the other person ends up really desperate for attention? i hate to admit it works on me. unfortunately i also have an inability to tell the difference between mind games, just someone being busy and real lac of interest. but im so paranoid about outright asking that i end up just saying how "I" feel and then it leads to them ether being nice about it and telling me nothing of how they feel, which usually clears it up real well but makes me look like an idiot, or they start to show more interest in me. on occasion they also block and remove me, but thats no biggy, at least i know and it clear. there is also a frustrating side effect. if i am interested in a girl and shes being distant and i try harder and harder and harder, eventually i will jump and latch on to the next, even semi interested party. doing this i typically give up interest on the previous individual. so if they liked me, i end up not caring and just instinctualy assuming they arint interested. as it stands since my breakup i think ive gone threw jumping to next seeming interested partys about 5-7 times. each time ill admit i was reaching, but it happens. now i just want to be of interest to anyone really. one girl i know, an ex, is all over trying to get back with me, going so far as to say she loves me and stuff but not only never fallowing threw with things but more often than not is completely un available to be messaged on my time.
i get 0 messages on dating sites, i get no interest from girls i know, im pretty much stuck. the only reason i dont message 1st is cuz there are so many bots. and i get no real matchs on the sites. it really feels like theres someone going around telling everyone every lie that exists about me. like if get someone not getting messages on dating sites every day, or not ever week, or even not every few weeks, but i just dont get any from people. just bots. i must be so incredibly un attractive that people cant even stand the idea of dating someone that looks like i do. i ligit do noy even think im just ugly, i think im ridiculously unattractive, over weight, un ambitious, and just all around a pariah.
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