those who knew me always said that I light up when I spoke about her. every single one of them said it, even when they just met me. when i spoke about her, when i saw her, i felt whole. in 2 years we never fought, not truly. now, after all that, i just feel like i've lost more than just her, like i lost a piece of myself. i don't light up, i don't fell joy, i cant even remember how it felt. i feel like a completely different person. i don't feel held back by an invisible force keeping me from trying. i feel the pain in my back and instead of thinking of how much it hurts, i think about how i can make the pain stop so i can go on with my life. its gotten to where i dont remember her, not really, i remember bits, flashes, that theres a reason i should miss her, but i just dont. i feel bad that i just dont care or miss her. its frustrating even. the memory feels as though it was a story tolled by another guy. like each day that goes by a little more of her existence slips away. if i try really really hard i can remember things about then, but its like i know that im forgetting something and i can't put my finger on it. i like it, its freeing, but it also is a regrettable thing to know you will lose who someone was and remember nothing but a name and a few things that happened.
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