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have you ever dealt with a guy like me
depressed as hell, filled with anxiety
a complete stranger even to myself
ask me about my deteriorating health

i'll flip the question away and shut back down
i don't want to talk while there's people around
i just want to sit and think about life
and convince myself that i won't cry

but i know better than that
i know i won't make it
don't expect me back
there is no round-trip

i had people ask what's wrong with me
as they kick while i try to shine their feet
they spit in my face and share a laugh
and fill my head with insults that last

so i walk on down to my favorite bar
where the people question just who you are
then they turn to their gin and cokes
as i drink to forget all the rotten folk

but i know better than that
i know i won't make it
don't expect me back
there is no round-trip