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only way to relieve my sorrow is this stupid thing.
i can't believe i'm such an idiot for this.
rereading the comments.
i wish i could just explain to you.
and sort out these misunderstandings
but its too late.
even though there's so much to clear up
i can't talk to you anymore.
i keep crying because of all the things we've said.
you waited for me for a year... and i forgot about you.
i guess its my turn?
i'm not going to give up.
even though you already have and lost all your feelings for me.
and if you ever do read this,
i never took anything she said.
i still waited for you...
you probably are just sighing and are disappointed in me.
that's fine.
but still.
you waited a whole year
putting that paragraph on your profile.
i still wish i had seen it.
actually, i just wanna go back.
i could remember when we skyped, your cam wouldn't stay on
and we'd just keep laughing.
i remember how we stayed up and you saw my sleeping face.
how i sang for you.
how you said you wanted to break nikki and randy's record of a year...
...
you can let go so easily.
it literally feels like last year.
how we broke apart like that.
i wonder how i was even able to let go of you so easily.
now i can't.
you're just so important to me.
i can't. .______.
i'm being a huge stubborn a** hole right now.
agh.
i just need you back to where i know i can say you're mine again...
probably won't be soon.
i'll keep trying.
i won't give up on you.
i'll keep praying
until the day
that i can actually tell you
in person
that i love you. :3
i'll stop crying over the song danny gave me.
oh. btw. if you didn't know, danny was telling me everything after i showed you the video.
you probably already know. but yeah.
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not gunna give up ~ (:
because there's nothing i have to lose anymore.