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its not like last year
where i could easily let go.
this year
was just so eventful.
i can't kick you out of my life like that
i said so many things that made it sound like i could move on but i just can't.
i wish i just didn't do anything.
i wish i just didn't send that paragraph.
we'd still be together, even though we are silent.
my mind is just blank right now.
i love you that much.
i don't know how you thought that but
i never did betray you..
i was always eager and impatient
having false hope, thinking you'd just message me a hello..
and go "sorry"
and we'd talk again.
like we used too.
and i'll continue to hope that way.
because last year, i was just guessing
i forgot the pain.
this year, even though its all broken and shattered,
i'll still continue to hope.
for the day that we could just
talk normally again.
i can't erase anything that has happened,
i probably will move on one day,
but i will never forget these past 2 months.