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so, I think I'm sick or getting depressed or something.

felt like crap dragging myself out of bed, and my performance at the gym was less than stellar. Didn't even make it halfway through the program before I called it quits because everything hurt and I couldn't focus. *sigh*

getting excited and depressed at the same time about the whole work situation. The more I try to do, the more I realize that the girl who's replacing me will have to figure out how to do to that for herself eventually... so what's the point?

then I remind myself that I'm getting paid for this, AND it counts as the final project for my tech class. so in essence, I'm done two months early with it.

but anywho. still tired. homework still needs to be finished for tomorrow, and motivation is nowhere in sight. the weather sucks.

and it's kind of a flashback to 5 or 6 months ago, in September. That month ROYALLY SUCKED. As we're near the 6-month marker for all of the tragic s**t that happened then, it's been hard remembering all of it. Cried for a long while last night when i thought about Troy. OC did a tribute concert to him last night. And this morning read M's blog about the 6-month mark since her mother, sister, and niece were all killed by a drunk driver.

and B is having a few issues which need to be sorted out. I hate it when people lie to my face, especially when they know I trust them more than tons of other people. but we're all only human; we all make mistakes.

and E makes me glad I'm a commie. biggrin I've learned to write respectfully, getting my point across without sounding brash. Having to read a message that's unintentionally derogatory is... painful. I want to just re-write it myself haha. too late, though...



blaaaaaaargh.


when life gives you lemons, stash them away for later and go take a nap.

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(the next morning)

speaking of communications, just finished up another press release for class. xD have another essay to write this morning, don't forsee it being done in time... *sigh*


it's just been really bad lately with trying to get things done. it's normal for me to want to curl up under a rock and not want to do anything because there's so much to do, but this time it's actually happening.....

i may or may not take a break from running tomorrow. I'm still sore, and still feel like crap, and I still need to get this stupid paper done.

... ja. that sounds like the best option.