250...
Can I just say I give up and leave? I know where I'd go, not quite sure how or when I'd get there, but I have a place in mind. And I'm sure Laura wouldn't mind putting me up for a few days till I can get everything arranged. She did have everything set up for me last time...
I gave up my day - a day I could have spent doing homework and getting ready for school - cleaning mom's god damn kitchen and basement only to be bitched out all night. I'm so tired of it all...
No matter what I do, I can't do anything right, I can't say anything because everything I have to say is either wrong or goes unheard, I can't even lock myself in my room because then I'm being "anti-social, sullen, surley, irresponsible, and uninterested in being a part of this family". Well that last part is right. I don't want to be part of this family. Not anymore.
It's days like this I wish I could disappear, that no one could see me, no one could find me, I mean, it's like that every other day ending in "Y". Why is it that the one day things get really bad, I'm the only one people see?
Maybe, if I close my eyes and wish really, really hard, I'll wake up to find myself beside the one man in my life who treats me right, who loves me and who I love desperately... But that kind of thing only happens in Disney movies... It doesn't work that way, not in real life...
250 days till I leave for College, 293 days till I turn 18, then I can be with who I want, I can leave and be my own person, I can love whoever I so choose and, more importantly, I can be with my boyfriend without my mother getting in the way. But waiting for that is like waiting for an eternity. Every minute that passes feels like an hour, every hour like a day, and every day feels like forever. I can't stand it...
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