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The count down continues...
It's been an okay week, better than I expected, but yesterday I ended up in a huge fight with my mother and grandmother, the two of them against me. That's always how it is. I'm really sick of it. I can't get a word in to defend myself and when I - by some miracle - finally manage to say something, they take my words, twist them around, a b***h at me for what I said.
And then tonight, I got bitched out and ended up with dish duty till my hands shrivelled. I don't mind doing the dishes, but when I have to dry them once the dishpan gets too full, put the damn gloves back on and repeat this cycle till my mother's done dirtying dishes just to dump them on me, it gets annoying. I asked for a little help, someone to dry them for me so I wouldn't have to wrestle with the gloves and so that I'd have more room for all the others, I get bitched at, nearly screamed at, a lovely little lecture, and then FINALLY the help I asked for but they did as little as possible. I was doing dishes for an hour... Tomorrow I'm going to end up working for 8 hours and then coming home and doing MORE ******** house work for my mother who treats me as her own personal Cinderella. I'm not a maid...
Usually, when things get bad, I lean on my boyfriend for support but I can't even do that at the moment because his laptop won't work so I don't even get to speak to him... And I won't get to for at least another week...
I seriously don't want to be here right now, I'd rather be on a plane, or a train, or a bus, or even in a stinky, crappy old truck on my way to him. It doesn't matter how I get there, I just need to get there... I hate it here, I hate everything about this place except my brothers and my friends. I can't stand it... I want so much to be with him, to be able to feel his arms around me, to be able to look up into his eyes and see him looking back at me. Is that selfish of me? Am I what my grandmother think of me: a spoiled, self-centered teenager?
Things just really aren't going well for me right now... I hope he gets his laptop fixed soon, I really need him ...
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