So, it's been a while since I've uploaded a journal...
And although I HAVE been on Gaia, I don't really do anything anymore...
I've been into reading Fanfiction [mainly KHR fanfiction] and I have been playing an online game called Elsword.
So...
Yup...
I'm now 17, in my last year of high school and it is December 5th, with I believe only 9 days [excluding the weekends] left until this semester ends...
So, I started panicking on the day before the first day of school started and then I panicked again a few months ago...
And then I panicked like last week when I realized that 4 years later, I'm going to be 21...
So I think I'm going to be panicking again either during Winter Break or when the new semester starts...
I'm really iffy of what I'm going to do since I love so many things...
I've been thinking about going into photography or writing but I'm not quite sure...
I know I need motivation for both of those and we all know I don't have any...
I'm actually thinking about going into Elementary teaching with Writing and Photography and the like being my hobbies or my Minors...
I'm also considering designing but I'm not quite sure on that either...
As for colleges, I'm thinking of going either to ASU [Arizona State University] or GCU [Grand Canyon University].
Paige has called me before and told me about Oklahoma University and I have been considering it. I've been doing a lot of thinking and I actually would like to stay close to home.
My brother is getting fed up with my mom, and honestly I am too, but I honestly think he won't be here to support her for long.
I really wanna find a job that's decent pay so that I can help my mom with living...
I plan to work on Campus since it's more convenient and it actually works around our school schedule and I plan to send money down to her of course...
When I go into working and start my career, I hope to get a nice little apartment for her to live in and all...
Honestly, she wants me to go into nursing and all since it's more high paying but that's all she wants me to do.
Her suggestions for me is really about it benefiting her. And really, I've told her at least a dozen times that I'm not going to be doing those because I believe I won't have fun in those.
My fun lies with fine arts and the like, not science and all those other stuff. Those are just not my passion.
I want to look back at my life and not regret any choice that I make. If I go along with what she wants, I know I'll end up regretting it because it won't feel like I'm fulfilling anything.
I just...
I just hope she can be happy with what she has now.
Dreams ARE important since it drives us to keep going, but the present and reality is ALSO important because it allows us to cherish the little bit of happiness we have now.
I'm ranting again... emotion_yatta
But...I just needed to get that off my chest.
I'm going to live the way I want and the way I want to live is without regrets.
I know things may not go my way...
That's why,
I can only wish for the best.
<3
And although I HAVE been on Gaia, I don't really do anything anymore...
I've been into reading Fanfiction [mainly KHR fanfiction] and I have been playing an online game called Elsword.
So...
Yup...
I'm now 17, in my last year of high school and it is December 5th, with I believe only 9 days [excluding the weekends] left until this semester ends...
So, I started panicking on the day before the first day of school started and then I panicked again a few months ago...
And then I panicked like last week when I realized that 4 years later, I'm going to be 21...
So I think I'm going to be panicking again either during Winter Break or when the new semester starts...
I'm really iffy of what I'm going to do since I love so many things...
I've been thinking about going into photography or writing but I'm not quite sure...
I know I need motivation for both of those and we all know I don't have any...
I'm actually thinking about going into Elementary teaching with Writing and Photography and the like being my hobbies or my Minors...
I'm also considering designing but I'm not quite sure on that either...
As for colleges, I'm thinking of going either to ASU [Arizona State University] or GCU [Grand Canyon University].
Paige has called me before and told me about Oklahoma University and I have been considering it. I've been doing a lot of thinking and I actually would like to stay close to home.
My brother is getting fed up with my mom, and honestly I am too, but I honestly think he won't be here to support her for long.
I really wanna find a job that's decent pay so that I can help my mom with living...
I plan to work on Campus since it's more convenient and it actually works around our school schedule and I plan to send money down to her of course...
When I go into working and start my career, I hope to get a nice little apartment for her to live in and all...
Honestly, she wants me to go into nursing and all since it's more high paying but that's all she wants me to do.
Her suggestions for me is really about it benefiting her. And really, I've told her at least a dozen times that I'm not going to be doing those because I believe I won't have fun in those.
My fun lies with fine arts and the like, not science and all those other stuff. Those are just not my passion.
I want to look back at my life and not regret any choice that I make. If I go along with what she wants, I know I'll end up regretting it because it won't feel like I'm fulfilling anything.
I just...
I just hope she can be happy with what she has now.
Dreams ARE important since it drives us to keep going, but the present and reality is ALSO important because it allows us to cherish the little bit of happiness we have now.
I'm ranting again... emotion_yatta
But...I just needed to get that off my chest.
I'm going to live the way I want and the way I want to live is without regrets.
I know things may not go my way...
That's why,
I can only wish for the best.
<3
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And yes, do what you know you will enjoy as a career! It's not work if you love what you're doing. :D