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I tend to let my feelings and my mind run wild I tend to think way to much I then let myself beleave things will change and then I think things that can never be will be, in the end I hert myself because It will never be what I think it is, nothing will ever change for me, I'll always try and fail. if theres a goal I'll never reach it. Nice guys finish last but if you never finish what dose that make me? I dont know, and may never find out. I wish I could stop thinking, make my mind go blank. Im deppresed now, I hate when I relise what I thought was that only a thought. Im stuck and will never move from here, I might as well unpack my stuff and wait for death to come and take me, Im sick of trying, I'll never get it I'll never be it Im just something people discard, thrown away as burnable trash. Im done. Im just do done with it all.

why? Why am I not good enough? whats wrong with me? is it my looks? my personality? Do I even seem a blip on the radar? Im just so confused. I dont know whats what, I dont think I could tell one thing from the other anymore. Lost in the pit inside my own mind, forever falling. Will I hit rock bottom, will I be catched or will I just keep falling answer I dont even know.