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He told me that if I was loosing that edge, to not worry cause he'd pull me back up. He said that if he couldn't hear my heart beat, I was too far away. What if its reversed? What if he's too far away so I can't hear his heart beat? Well I can tell you that its killer. We got into a big fight last weekend and eventually made up Tuesday. Since we've made up the conversations were decent the first night or so but slowly have been dropping. Like Tuesday and Wednesday the conversations were long, going until 11 or midnight and yesterday, it was only a whopping 3 texts. Soon, they're won't be conversations at all if this keeps up. It's sad actually. I've been with this guy since October and right now were hardly talking when I'm talking nearly from the time when me n my friend Chris are up, till the point where one of us goes to bed. It's sad that I text my best friend/ brother more than I do my boyfriend and let me say this, I try talking with my bf. I'm the one whose been sending Mornings and Hi's and he's bound to never reply eventually. In fact right now I feel like I'm competing for attention and love from him since he's probably busy. And honestly, I don't think I can win. And at this point my friend and brother Chris has suspicions against Alex that aren't justified yet which leads him to not trust him. I just don't know anymore. I don't. Someone tell me that there is an explanation for all of this. Please. I've given up on trying to start a conversation with him, I truly have. If he wants to talk to me, he may as well pick up the phone and drop a text himself cause I cannot keep doing this. I just can't
 Shortstopkate · Sun Jun 06, 2010 @ 05:01pm · 0 Comments |
