As the days go by, I seem to be getting worse and worse. Particularly during the night, I experience fits of depression or anger or hate or all of them at once. It's hard to explain.
Regret plagues my life. I have so much to regret for in my past. It's keeping me from accepting the present and advancing towards the future. Oh, how I fear the future. Regret plagues my life...I wish I could find a cure.
All I want...All I want is...I can't figure it out. I don't know what it is that I want. I feel like I'm missing something vital, but I can't figure out what it is. Love? Comfort? Trust? What is it? Damn it! Get out of my head. Get out of my head. Get out of my head!
I pray and pray and pray...but despair does not leave. I pray for it to be over. When will it be over? Why aren't my prayers being answered? I'm desperate here. DESPERATE! Why don't you answer? Where are you, God? Are you even there? Is there a God? NO THERE ISN'T!
THERE IS NO GOD!
Oh, it's MADNESS...utter MADNESS.
-MK
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