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Ok, here's an update on RebbyChan! (not that anyone cares lol!)

My pally (now ex-crush) and I had written these notes that had alot of "dirty jokes" in them. and he asked for them, so i give them to him. This was like back in early November. And then almost a month later, the ninth graders are in my class and I'm being told by my principal that she's got dirt on me.

my thoughts: holy crap! wat if its those note? but it couldn't be...maybe she's bluffing..? yea! she's bluffing...right..? oh no its wat i think it is them i'm screwed!

minutes later, I'm being called to the office. and i hear my principal pointing to Pally and saying that he was involved in the dirt she had on me and that we were talking about my Girly.

my thoughts: o no! she's not serious is she? my mom was right! giving the notes back to ppl is the wrong thing to do! they squeal...wait? why would he get himself into trouble? that's so dumb if he did...did he do it? i gave him those like a month ago! how could that happen?

my mood: getting angryer by the second

so im walking to the office wen coach walks w/me. he starts telling me he doesn't think that i would write such things, that he refused to belive that i'd partake in such things. that it was absolute ludacris (he didnt use that word btw) that i would take part in it.

(back to)my thoughts: ok then i must have not done it. but wat if i had? o man then im ganna let him down! i dont want to let another person down!

my mood: a rollercoaster ride

about 2 minutes later i get into the "interigation room" as i call it. next thing i kno im having all of these sheets of paper w/pallys handwritting and wat i thought to be 'her' handwritting...i took a closer look and noticed the anime face i use on the internet: ^_^
i studied them read some of them, and inside i smiled at wat fun we had and alomost lafed but controlled myself knowing i'd get a longer lecture from coach about sex then i had coming to me.

my thoughts: o boy...im screwed...

my mood: down the toliet

so i admit that it was me and pally and automatically wished i had only said it was me. coach leaves the notes in my hands and begins his usual sex talk. i sit and listen, and next thing i hear is "we're ganna have to call some parents now..." i paled, tears filled my eyes so fast. they're were ganna call my parents..? my parents were going to have to come?

my thoughts: o no! i dont think i can handle this! my parents are going to pull me out of school! im ganna b banned from talking to pally! i can't handle this again...not again...plz dont call my parents! they'll never trust me again at this rate! plz no!

my mood: sad as heck!

it seemed like eternity before he was done lecturing...and once he was he told me i shouldn't cry bcause my parents were coming up here. it was wrong of me to cry cause they were coming. so i held my tears back. and then he left me in scilience to think about wat i'd done. so i sat there and composed myself for a few before getting up and walking out of the 'interrigation room'. as soon as i step out the door i tell my principal, "it was me..." and turn to walk towards the chapel hall, "did u repent?" she asks me, i give her the honest truth, "yes..." but i dont think i repented cause i sinned, i repented cause my parents were ganna come up here, but that weight was quickly taken off by her next words: "alright...we'll drop them here and now."

my thoughts: o wow! yes! thats so cool! man that was really scary! to have my parents almost called to the school...

my mood: quickly sobered up after that last thought.

i enter the chapel hall, still in shock, tears once again welling in my eyes. i sit next to my best friend. i say nothing. she looks at me and knows im not in my usualy happy mood. asking me wat's wrong was futile though. i just blinked back my tears and shook my head, afraid to speak cause i knew my voice would break bfore i said anything. but she kept asking me wat was rong, was i ok, wat was it all about.i still refused to speak. sudenly pall chimes in, "was it the notes?" he burst out not caring that only him me and skittles had read the notes. i turn around and give him a glare and snap at him "what did you do with them!?" best friend's face was that of shock, seeing me absolutly furious was a rare thing. pally comes back with "i threw them away! i dont know how they found them! i threw them 5 miles away in a dumpster!" furious i again snap at him, my glare still going "i knew i shouldnt have given them to you! they were safer at myplace where no one look at them but me! i knew i shouldnt have given them to you!" at that point i had turned around and shut my mouth cause i felt the tears coming into my eyes. suddenly pally's hand is on my shoulder, and he's looking at me with worried eyes, "are we in trouble?" i soften slightly as i remebered i wasnt the only who would get into trouble. "no...i dont think so....prinicpal said she would drop it. but you know how this school is..." he asks me again "are we in trouble...?" i give him the same answer "i dont think so..."

my thoughts: is that all he cares bout? getting into trouble?

my mood: sour apple

next thing i know he's telling me hes ganna make sure and then he's walking out. and chapel begins. we stand to sing...but i can barely mouth the words cause the urge to cry was so strong. best friend keeps look at me in worried glances that hold a tinge of curiousity, knowing that something in those notes were about her. wen the music part was over we sat. minutes later best friend is poking me and telling me to look behind me. and i see pally a few rows down giving me a thumbs up. i turned around and continued to look down in effort to hide my tears untill chapel was over.
wat seemed like hours later we were able to head to our 4th period classes. i was still stone silient at this point. not speaking to anyone else, looking down. wen pally and best friend started to walk beside me. pally beings with "we're in the clear..." i just look up at him and then at the ground again. "principal says that we're not in any trouble and she's not ganna call our parents, so its ok. we're safe." best friend is silent until he's out of earshot. "wat were in those notes?" she asks me. i shook my head once again, the tears were still there.

my thoughts: i dont care if were in the clear! we almost got into trouble! and i disappointed a teacher who had so much faith in me! doesn't anyone see these tears? doesn't anyone care?

my mood: no where near happy

finally we get to the corner where we go our seperate ways till lunch. she tells me "well ill see you at lunch i guess..." huggs me and walks off. i nodd and walk off, still quiet and looking down.
after waiting a few minutes coach came and let us in our home room to get our stuff. grabbing my back pack i quickly walk out of the class and to the math room. i sit down. and keep my stare concentrated at my desk and my mouth shut tight. and the 'her' walks into the room. and just starts talking. so i talked back, she at that point had been the only one i has said more then 2 sentences too. soon after pally walks into the room. my mouth is automatically quiet. pally takes his usual seat behind me and whispers "its alright, you know. we're not getting into any trouble." i didnt turn around. i just sat there, facing forward. scowl on my face.
next thing i kno he's calling 'her' over and i turn slightly and see him scribbling somehting down. and then 'her' rellayes the information to me for the third time. i look at her and shrug and then put my head down. tears were once again in my eyes. one actually manages to slip past my defenses but no one noticed, so i quickly wiped it away.

my thoughts: you just dont get it, pally! you just don't get it! coach is disappointed in me. i'm such a fony!

my mood: i felt like the biggest poser on the face of this earth. i was exactly wat i hated...a hypocrite.

soon after class had started skittles made her appearance, and sat down. i felt free to talk to her in my usual manner, but i still felt sad. after we were all finally settled and doing our work i pull out a scrap sheet of paper and write pally a note.


the note:

me: i just really need to cry. i dont know why but i just do.

pally: everythings going to be fine. principal isnt going to call our parents nor is she going to do anything. so were in the clear. i dont know who this happend but im sorry and its not going to happen again. no more notes, unless absolutley neccessary, please. id like to avoid any other incidents like htis one, how ever yo u can still talk to me about anything you need to know that, right?

me: yea, sure

pally: im sry

me: its not ur fault

pally: that doesnt matter i still feel responsisble (sp?)

me:why do u feel responsible? u didnt give her those note. if anything it should be me thats responsible! i started most of those! i gave them to you!

pally: but i replied to them. and most of the time i was the worst of the two of us.

me: so we're both equal. oh well.

pally: ok. w/e

with that i turned the page and began on the day's class assignment. and to this day we have not passed a single note. and our friendship has changed since then. we almost never talk about any thing serious anymore, correction we almost never talk anymore unless theres a reason.