have you ever had something that was said to you that was soo sweet that you wanted to cry but couldn't until later on when you get into a small tiff with the same person and then end up crying?
i hate it when that happens totally happened to me last night.
I got sort of into a bit of a "fight" (thats what we shall call it for now) with my teddy... i had instead of duking it out (like i would normally) instead i just agreed with him since i knew he'd be right anyways no matter how i tryed to fight him on it. He said he rather me fight him on it then just give in it be like a dominance thing and he doesn't want to do that to me...
he just doesn't understand why i refuse to even try to fight with him... whichis understandable cause he's never really seen me in a fight.... well except maybe on the phone but i was calm in comparission to what i am like... i don't know how to explain it to him ... without getting my self all distant and upset a bit...
I'm just afriad if i fight with him i don't want him to be mad at me and i don't want to be mad at him... and theres more to the reason of me being afriad not nessicarly being mad at each other.
In nature i say sorry alot... where it gets execessive (bit annoying to others but it's how i am until i feel "free" of my guilt -which can take a very long time-) i feel like things are my fault but i do know that everyone has a part i just don't care if the other doesn't think they did anytihng wrong but that mostly depends on who the person is..
but anyways i have to go for now.
 Rikku42 · Thu Jan 12, 2006 @ 11:28pm · 2 Comments |
