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i just ate a giant continer on watermelon >.< n i tell ya wut i has ta pee!!!! but yeahs i been texing with someone.
he isnt ready to hear wut i have to say but he will be one day.I am afraid i might slip n say it cuz im so used to saying it to all my friends.my friends r my family.i love every single one of them.
ppl say im wierd but im not so strange cuz i take ppl for who they r.even if its wen they r trying to fake being some one else. idk if there is any one else out there like me but if there is i'd like to know.i'd like to know im not alone in the world. :/ even if my friends were to stab me or hurt me in any way they r still my friend. i will do anything n everything for them.all they has to do is ask.I will do anything for them to be happy.
"u'll never c wut u've done to me..."i love that song.
its sad.i miss the ppl in hell.they r growing up w/o me n i dont get to c who they become.i dont get to c them change into nice ppl. i know i wasnt liked n ws made fun of but i did try.everything i did for them wasnt good enough.I think i miss my very first friend the most.She is ganna have a baby boy.Im so happy for her.Me n her used to be so insink but now a days we seem so far apart. is it wrong to want things to go back to wut they were?
ive become so sensative.idk wut happened to me.I used to not care bu now idk anything. Things changed so much since i met Glori.She showed me that i can be loved.thaty i am loved.
some times i cant feel loved n those r wut i call down days.i try to hide it cuz there is no need to worrie any one with my problems.some times i wish i could turn into a fish n swim away from all the pain.Even on my happiest day i am still a bit sad.
to keep myself from going krazy i go where im needed.Right now he needs me n here is where i'll be till he has had enough of me.Cuz who wants to be with some one who has down days?
i dont have down days wen i wake up to some one next to me...but i know as well as the next person i am to be alone for the rest of my life.At least i get some sort of happyness by making others happy. :/ so thats wut i intend to do with the rest of my life.I dont want them to suffer as i do.So im ganna make them happy till they no longer need or want me around. crying te amor amigos.