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We were friends…
Because you befriended me.
You fell in love…
While I was with someone else.

When I was dumped…
You were there for me.
You loved me…
So I came to love you.

You heard rumors…
And mistrusted me.
You thought I still loved my ex...
A true friend would trust me.

You abused me…
Yet I thought I loved you.
You hurt me over and over…
A true friend would do that not once.

I lost my earlier feelings…
You wouldn’t let me leave.
You made me feel too guilty…
A true friend would give me a choice.

I broke up with you four times…
But thrice you convinced me to try again.
You fought on and on for me…
A true friend would let me go.

You told me you loved me…
Too much to let me go.
You fought to be by my side…
A true friend would care about how I feel.

You gave me a message from God…
“We’re soul-mates.”
Then you went on to love someone else…
A true friend wouldn’t have lied to me.

When your friend finally convinced you to let go…
You only loosened your grip.
You begged to still be my friend…
A true friend would know I wouldn’t leave her.

Now every time we speak…
You are compelled to fight.
We can no longer talk without an argument…
A true friend wouldn’t verbally attack me.

And now you’ve finally done it…
You told me it was my fault.
You left me completely…
You’ve hurt me too much.

I’m dying for a friend…
But what do I get?
I get you…
And then you leave me.

You’ve set off the bomb…
There’s no turning back now.
You complain to me…
You think your life is worse than mine.

Your life is worse???
Look at what you’ve done to me!
All I wanted was a friend…
And obviously you’re no friend.

All these feelings…
I’ve left unsaid.
All of these smiles…
They’re fake ones plastered onto my face.

I’m done…
Done pretending everything’s fine.
Done bottling up my feelings…
I’m letting them out now.

It’s raining as I write this…
There’s not a cloud in the sky.
I’m trying not to grab a knife…
And let my blood flow freely.

You befriended me…
You were always there for me.
You mistrusted me…
You abused me.

You imprisoned me…
You fought for me.
You didn’t care…
You lied to me.

You fought for me…
You fought against me.
You’ve set off my rage…
You’ve gone too far.

I wanted to befriend you…
I thought you loved me.
I gave you attention…
That was what you loved.

You never loved me…
You loved what I did for you.
With your “love”…
You’ll never find true love.

I did what I could…
I tried to be a friend.
Now I only hate you…
Is this what you fought for?