No one takes those words seriously anymore. They're so easy to say.
So is a lot of things in fact.
Just recently out of a near month long relationship (my first, by the way), I've had the chance to wonder if it's really worth getting into another.
When my relationship first started, I was txt messaging someone who told me:
"...Tell him...that you're happy that he loves you but you're not quite sure if you love him yet. And promise me you won't tell him you love him unless you're absolutely, one hundred percent sure." (4/3/09)
And I tried to keep remembering that. It was my first relationship, the guy was uber cute and we actually liked a lot of the same things. To me, nothing in my life gave me greater joy. And so... I slipped up. I <3 or I luv you came naturally once or twice. Or maybe more, but I digress. I know for sure it happened. And now we're not together. So, who says I don't deserve my own pity party?
We're still friends (I've made sure to have that confirmed more than once) but my initial feelings towards him linger. It was less than a week ago, btw.
I still really really care about him. I just don't know in what way anymore.
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JA NE!
(Next time, I'll talk about myself and what makes me happy. <3 I don't even care if anyone reads this. It just makes me happy to be able to write about my angsty/emo feelings without dealing with the cynical, apathetic people who want to make me feel like crap for doing so. I may or may not go into more detail about this next time.)
